I had a good day yesterday at church. At first I didn't want to hear mass with my mom but I eventually decided to since I haven't been spending quality time with God lately. It turned out real great because after days, even weeks of not having a good conversation with Him, I finally had a great time with Him. Then afterwards, I got to try chicken kariman for the first time and then I got my haircut. I was also somewhat productive in the evening, I was able to start my history midterm. I've been feeling a bit pressured and I've been panicking a bit because I have so many things to do, but one thing God told me during our talk was to do my best and He will do the rest. It may be a cliche but it works. Another thing that made me smile yesterday was that I realized how God has made things work out for me (I'll enumerate these later).
Today, my good feeling has continued. I set the goal of finishing my reviewer for my Philo orals on the 6th and I was able to do it (I actually just finished refining it...hehe)...it took a lot food to finish (I would eat everytime I would finish one thesis statement; there were three so after the first I ate Chiz Curls and Pillows, after the second I ate cup noodles and Mini Chips Ahoy, then when I was almost done with the third I was called to dinner and so I had dinner...hehe...I'm gonna get fat because of school, haha...) I feel real accomplished right now because I finished what I set out to do. It reminds me of the reading marathon I accomplished during the 24th. It just amazes me and I think it's just right since I've been a sloth the past few days, just watching TV, DVDs, going out...stuff like that...hehe...
Oh yeah and this blog is an accomplishment too because I've been wanting to blog but I've never found the time to, hehe...
Here's how God has made things work out for me:
1. I feel amazed at how I was able to accomplish stuff for my history midterm in a span of a few days. The interesting thing is that I did not even realize that classes would resume next week. I'm just thankful that I was able to get my butt moving in working on my midterm. I did it without panicking because I didn't realize that Christmas break was almost over.
2. We did not reach St. Thomas Aquinas in Philo so we only had three thesis statements instead of four. Today, I am so thankful that we only had three thesis statements because I think I only had enough brain juice for three.
So there, it all worked out...I'll add to these next time.
That's all for now. I'm off to doing my other errands for the day - funny, it's almost 12 midnight...hehe...I'm pretty hyper right now because of the stuff I accomplished and because tomorrow is relax day...it's New Year's Eve! Good food and bonding time with family...going to the mall with Cha in the afternoon and watching DVDs after.
Thanks Lord... =)\
(Haha, I was so excited to do other things that I forgot to put a title...)
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Late Blog: Compilation of Stuff I've Wanted to Blog About
Olympics
I was such an Olympic freak during the last Olympics in Beijing. The TV would always be on an Olympic channel whenever I was home. It didn't really matter what the event was, I just wanted to tune in and I tried to catch whatever I could. I didn't have much of a choice since Sky Cable didn't have Solar Sports anymore and I didn't subscribe to the pay-per-view. The sports I looked forward to were basketball (no duh...), swimming, gymnastics, and the marathons. I disliked it when CS9 or ETC would show boxing matches.
But aside from my Olympic obsession, what was real noteworthy was how I was able to watch the men's basketball gold medal match, a bit of the bronze medal match, and Michael Phelps' final event.
First, let's talk about Michael Phelps. Aside from watching the Olympic events whenever I'd get home or when I'm about to go to bed, I'd tune in to ETC in the morning because they talk about the Olympics. When I heard about Michael Phelps' feat, I really wished that I could watch his final event to see if he would get the Olympic record. I was gonna be content with watching the replay if I would be able to catch it but I got lucky...I was getting my haircut and it just so happened that the parlor I was in had Solar Sports. I knew that Michael Phelps' final event was on that day. Solar Sports was televising the events live and I knew it would be historic to watch that final event...it's always special when you watch something live. I was already done with my haircut, but the event wasn't on yet. They were still showing all the other matches. My mom and Cha were already nagging me to go home but I told them it was real important for me to catch the event live. I'm not too proud of it, but we even got into a bit of an argument. I told them they could go ahead and I'll just take a cab going home because I really wanted to watch that last event. I knew my mom and Cha were getting pretty annoyed with me but I just really wanted to watch. I wasn't completely proud of how I was acting, but sometimes some things are just worth standing up for. I made a wish that day, I prayed that I'd be able to watch that match and I was given the opportunity to do so and I didn't want to let it pass. Fortunately, the match was up next and I was able to catch it. All was good when we got into the car. I was smiling and I was happy. Mom and Cha were laughing and mocking me in the car.
On the day of the men's basketball medal match, we went to Tagaytay Highlands, I forgot why but we did. I knew what time the game would be televised on CS9. While I was playing billiards, they were showing the bronze medal match live. It was already the second or third quarter when I saw it. I watched a little while playing. I was happy Argentina was winning. But I was pretty confident that I'd be able to catch the replay on CS9. Unfortunately, the car broke down on the way home. Of course I started getting pissed because we couldn't decide whether we would get the car fixed or get another ride. If we had decided earlier, I might have been able to catch the game. And so I went on this frenzy, trying to find a way I could watch the game online. I asked Cha to ask her friend to look for a site. I just really wanted to watch the game. I did find a site and I was able to download the bronze medal match. It took about a day to download the whole thing. I was only able to get back to the video and watch it a few days ago...hehe...so the video has been on the desktop for months. But that's not the big story I wanted to tell. I mean, it was cool that I was able to find the video online...I was pretty bummed that I wasn't able to get a hold of the women's medal match and the men's gold medal match. I just read an article about the women's matches (specifically the bronze medal one because I was rooting for Russia...Becky Hammon!!!) and I was glad that the Russians won. I was able to catch the women's gold medal match one time on TV. CS9 was replaying Olympic games. I wasn't too interested in it anymore though, I knew the U.S. won and I really wished that Russia made it to the gold medal match instead.
Anyway, going back...here's the big adventure. I was real desperate to watch the men's gold medal match. I knew BTV was showing the games and I really wished we had BTV back then (it doesn't matter though, we have it now and I'm glad). I went to BTV's website to check their schedules. I was bummed that I wouldn't be able to watch the women's games but I saw that I could catch the men's gold medal match the following day. I asked Cha if we could go to her house the following day just to watch and she said yeah. I forgot what we did before we went to her house, but anyway, the remarkable thing was that I endured a very long jeepney ride just to get to her place. During the jeepney ride, Cha and I were talking and I smiled as I told her, "Man, what I would do for basketball..." I was just fascinated. I am such a basketball freak. And really, when there is something I want, I'd do almost anything to get it.
We were a bit late for the game because it was traffic but I was happy when I got to watch it. Cha's dad even fed us kalderetang baka, so I was eating while watching. After the game, we went home. I was satisfied. While watching, I kept telling Cha I wished we had BTV...I missed the channel so much. At least we have it now. =)
Clark and Lana
Here's another one of my weird obsessions...Clark Kent and Lana Lang...or Lana Lang-Kent to me. I don't know what's with them..I have my theories, but man, I just love them and they affect me so much.
I've felt depressed for a couple of days after watching that episode where Clark proposes to Lana and Lana accepts but ends up dying because of Lex. Clark asks for Jor-El's help and he goes back in time, doesn't propose to Lana, and they end up breaking up. I was so upset with Clark, he could have proposed again but warned Lana...blah blah blah...that's just one example of how Smallville affects me.
I've felt depressed for weeks about the two and I still do sometimes...hehe...but I just remember the time when I was on a high for a couple of weeks because of one fic I read. I found a sanctuary as a Clana fan in Sweet. I remember spending an entire day or weekend just reading fics. Yup, I went on another one of my crazes. Ask Cha, I couldn't stop saying "Clark and Lana" with matching weird, dreamy face, and goofy smile for weeks...I even wrote it down on a tissue paper while we were eating in The Old Spaghetti House. I was really on a high during those weeks, I'd smile everytime I would hear "You and Me" by Lifehouse (the song they danced to during prom). I'd think of the couple whenever I would hear a love song and I wouldn't even feel pain when I'd hear "You're Beautiful" by James Blunt (the song that played in the background during that dreaded episode when Clark proposed).
One of the things I realized during that week was that Clark and Lana were fictional characters. Their story was written by someone. They were figments of someone's imagination. Because their story was written by someone, it does not mean that whatever that person writes is final because it is a story...you imagine it. If Smallville writers could write stories and decide their outcomes, so could I and in my story Clark and Lana end up together.
When I realized this, I felt free. Of course, it doesn't change the fact that I still do get sad at times when I think about how their story ends in Smallville. But it's just a story. I can write my own and I can decide how it ends. I still wish they'd end up together in Smallville...but...I guess you can't get everything you want. I have my fics to cheer me up and I've read some awesome post-Requiem fics and I'm writing my own. (I felt down for a few days/weeks after Lana's final episode, felt better after I read some fics).
Say what you want to say, but Clark and Lana's love goes on forever...it's eternal.
Tom Welling and Kristin Kreuk have done such an amazing job. I don't think I would've been touched by Clark and Lana's story if other actors played the part.
SD day meet (the one with the higad; the day I told him about blink)
I've had some pretty awesome SD sessions with Bro. Martin, but there was this one time where I felt so great afterwards....so happy...so light...it was the day I told him about blink. I have to say, after that talk, I felt free. I was not a bad person and it was okay. I really wished I was able to blog during that day but things came up.
I was just so happy that on my way back from the Loyola House of Studies, I was smiling, I enjoyed my walk and I even told myself and God (I was kinda talking to Him on my way back) that even if a higad would fall on me, I wouldn't mind...(I told God I was kinda kidding, I wouldn't want a higad to fall on me...but I was just so happy...I usually crack jokes with Him when I'm feeling real good). I think I even texted my friends just to tell them I was happy. I think I texted Ai and told her I remembered her when I passed by the sick leaves...hehe...
I wish I could say more about that day and that I could remember some of the things, quotable quotes, that popped into my head during that walk...but I can't. I just remember the feeling and it was a real great feeling...the kind that makes me want to jump up and down...hehe... =p
Bad day - argue with dad in Megamall about receipt
Although it wasn't a very good experience, I found that day quite memorable. It was the first time in a long time that I got into an argument/fight with my dad. I was upset because he lost my Zen's receipt, which I needed for warranty purposes. I was being a bit pushy about asking his friend to look for it and he was missing the point why the receipt was important to me. I just got real annoyed that he was dismissing me and I was stressing him out. We didn't talk for a day or two, I think...or I think I said sorry that evening or the following day.
One of the things I realized after the fight was that my dad and I are both stubborn...hehe...I told Cha that. Looking back, I think that fight showed me that my dad and I are getting pretty close. We fought and then we made up afterwards.
Day at the embassy - bonding with Kaye. Math problem and drawings. Dad funny umbrella.
The day that we got our U.S. Visa was a pretty memorable day. My sister and I got to bond while waiting...because it was a very long wait. We chatted, something we hadn't done in a long time. I missed talking with Kaye and I had forgotten how fun it was talking to her...there are certain things that only her and I understand.
When we got real bored...this was when we were waiting for our interview...I talked her into solving a math problem with me. We tried computing how much longer we would have to wait given the number of counters, the clients left to be served, and the time it took for each person to be interviewed. We made some algebraic representations. Unfortunately, we realized after a while that we simply did not have enough data and so we ended up doodling. One of her doodles was the aerial view of Batman, which looked like a fried egg...hehe...I scanned the piece of paper we doodled in, it's posted in my Multiply site. The other memorable thing during the wait was my dad playing with the umbrella. While Kei and I were busy entertaining ourselves, I guess he tried to entertain himself by playing with the umbrella. He was moving the umbrella around, like drawing circles or writing something on the floor. It was a pretty funny and fascinating site, Kei and I laughed when we saw him...hehe...
The interview went well. We got our visas. My dad had a scary moment though, he saw one of his "enemies" while we were being interviewed and so he got nervous. He kept telling us about it afterwards. After the whole thing, dad brought us to school. Kei first then me. We bought Fillet O' Fish sandwiches in McDonald's for lunch. It was pretty traffic on the way back to ADMU. I fell asleep in the car. I was kinda late for my first class. I told Sir Siojo the reason why I was late afterwards.
God makes thing work out. Check cp about was panicking but He made it okay. Philo orals too, only three thesis statements. Histo was able to do stuff, didn't even know that school was coming up already.
December 19, 2008
I don't really remember this much but I wrote in my cellphone that I was panicking because I was late and I had stuff to do. I prayed that I wouldn't be late. Fortunately, things worked out. I wasn't late because it was a free cut. I think this was the last day of classes before Christmas break. I was bringing a lot of things, gifts actually, and I had some stuff to deliver (ice cream puff orders I think). I was really panicking because I had to deliver the stuff. I think I planned on delivering them before class but I was running late and so I was worrying...I prayed. Then I was so relieved when I found out that our teacher decided to have a free cut.
Christmas break 2008
After I finished preparing for my Ph103 midterm exams, I was so thankful that there were only three thesis statements instead of the original four because I didn't think I had enough energy or brain juice to handle four. I just remember feeling real thankful that day and I felt like things were working out.
During the break, one of the things I was able to accomplish was my photographic recording of Paco Park for my Hi198.7 midterm project. I was also able to do a big chunk of the paper. I didn't realize I was accomplishing all of those during the break and so I was thankful when I realized that I did. The thing was, I didn't realize that classes were about to resume already and so I was pretty fascinated and real thankful for the whole thing.
ADDITION TO STUFF I WANT TO REMEMBER:
I was such an Olympic freak during the last Olympics in Beijing. The TV would always be on an Olympic channel whenever I was home. It didn't really matter what the event was, I just wanted to tune in and I tried to catch whatever I could. I didn't have much of a choice since Sky Cable didn't have Solar Sports anymore and I didn't subscribe to the pay-per-view. The sports I looked forward to were basketball (no duh...), swimming, gymnastics, and the marathons. I disliked it when CS9 or ETC would show boxing matches.
But aside from my Olympic obsession, what was real noteworthy was how I was able to watch the men's basketball gold medal match, a bit of the bronze medal match, and Michael Phelps' final event.
First, let's talk about Michael Phelps. Aside from watching the Olympic events whenever I'd get home or when I'm about to go to bed, I'd tune in to ETC in the morning because they talk about the Olympics. When I heard about Michael Phelps' feat, I really wished that I could watch his final event to see if he would get the Olympic record. I was gonna be content with watching the replay if I would be able to catch it but I got lucky...I was getting my haircut and it just so happened that the parlor I was in had Solar Sports. I knew that Michael Phelps' final event was on that day. Solar Sports was televising the events live and I knew it would be historic to watch that final event...it's always special when you watch something live. I was already done with my haircut, but the event wasn't on yet. They were still showing all the other matches. My mom and Cha were already nagging me to go home but I told them it was real important for me to catch the event live. I'm not too proud of it, but we even got into a bit of an argument. I told them they could go ahead and I'll just take a cab going home because I really wanted to watch that last event. I knew my mom and Cha were getting pretty annoyed with me but I just really wanted to watch. I wasn't completely proud of how I was acting, but sometimes some things are just worth standing up for. I made a wish that day, I prayed that I'd be able to watch that match and I was given the opportunity to do so and I didn't want to let it pass. Fortunately, the match was up next and I was able to catch it. All was good when we got into the car. I was smiling and I was happy. Mom and Cha were laughing and mocking me in the car.
On the day of the men's basketball medal match, we went to Tagaytay Highlands, I forgot why but we did. I knew what time the game would be televised on CS9. While I was playing billiards, they were showing the bronze medal match live. It was already the second or third quarter when I saw it. I watched a little while playing. I was happy Argentina was winning. But I was pretty confident that I'd be able to catch the replay on CS9. Unfortunately, the car broke down on the way home. Of course I started getting pissed because we couldn't decide whether we would get the car fixed or get another ride. If we had decided earlier, I might have been able to catch the game. And so I went on this frenzy, trying to find a way I could watch the game online. I asked Cha to ask her friend to look for a site. I just really wanted to watch the game. I did find a site and I was able to download the bronze medal match. It took about a day to download the whole thing. I was only able to get back to the video and watch it a few days ago...hehe...so the video has been on the desktop for months. But that's not the big story I wanted to tell. I mean, it was cool that I was able to find the video online...I was pretty bummed that I wasn't able to get a hold of the women's medal match and the men's gold medal match. I just read an article about the women's matches (specifically the bronze medal one because I was rooting for Russia...Becky Hammon!!!) and I was glad that the Russians won. I was able to catch the women's gold medal match one time on TV. CS9 was replaying Olympic games. I wasn't too interested in it anymore though, I knew the U.S. won and I really wished that Russia made it to the gold medal match instead.
Anyway, going back...here's the big adventure. I was real desperate to watch the men's gold medal match. I knew BTV was showing the games and I really wished we had BTV back then (it doesn't matter though, we have it now and I'm glad). I went to BTV's website to check their schedules. I was bummed that I wouldn't be able to watch the women's games but I saw that I could catch the men's gold medal match the following day. I asked Cha if we could go to her house the following day just to watch and she said yeah. I forgot what we did before we went to her house, but anyway, the remarkable thing was that I endured a very long jeepney ride just to get to her place. During the jeepney ride, Cha and I were talking and I smiled as I told her, "Man, what I would do for basketball..." I was just fascinated. I am such a basketball freak. And really, when there is something I want, I'd do almost anything to get it.
We were a bit late for the game because it was traffic but I was happy when I got to watch it. Cha's dad even fed us kalderetang baka, so I was eating while watching. After the game, we went home. I was satisfied. While watching, I kept telling Cha I wished we had BTV...I missed the channel so much. At least we have it now. =)
Clark and Lana
Here's another one of my weird obsessions...Clark Kent and Lana Lang...or Lana Lang-Kent to me. I don't know what's with them..I have my theories, but man, I just love them and they affect me so much.
I've felt depressed for a couple of days after watching that episode where Clark proposes to Lana and Lana accepts but ends up dying because of Lex. Clark asks for Jor-El's help and he goes back in time, doesn't propose to Lana, and they end up breaking up. I was so upset with Clark, he could have proposed again but warned Lana...blah blah blah...that's just one example of how Smallville affects me.
I've felt depressed for weeks about the two and I still do sometimes...hehe...but I just remember the time when I was on a high for a couple of weeks because of one fic I read. I found a sanctuary as a Clana fan in Sweet. I remember spending an entire day or weekend just reading fics. Yup, I went on another one of my crazes. Ask Cha, I couldn't stop saying "Clark and Lana" with matching weird, dreamy face, and goofy smile for weeks...I even wrote it down on a tissue paper while we were eating in The Old Spaghetti House. I was really on a high during those weeks, I'd smile everytime I would hear "You and Me" by Lifehouse (the song they danced to during prom). I'd think of the couple whenever I would hear a love song and I wouldn't even feel pain when I'd hear "You're Beautiful" by James Blunt (the song that played in the background during that dreaded episode when Clark proposed).
One of the things I realized during that week was that Clark and Lana were fictional characters. Their story was written by someone. They were figments of someone's imagination. Because their story was written by someone, it does not mean that whatever that person writes is final because it is a story...you imagine it. If Smallville writers could write stories and decide their outcomes, so could I and in my story Clark and Lana end up together.
When I realized this, I felt free. Of course, it doesn't change the fact that I still do get sad at times when I think about how their story ends in Smallville. But it's just a story. I can write my own and I can decide how it ends. I still wish they'd end up together in Smallville...but...I guess you can't get everything you want. I have my fics to cheer me up and I've read some awesome post-Requiem fics and I'm writing my own. (I felt down for a few days/weeks after Lana's final episode, felt better after I read some fics).
Say what you want to say, but Clark and Lana's love goes on forever...it's eternal.
Tom Welling and Kristin Kreuk have done such an amazing job. I don't think I would've been touched by Clark and Lana's story if other actors played the part.
SD day meet (the one with the higad; the day I told him about blink)
I've had some pretty awesome SD sessions with Bro. Martin, but there was this one time where I felt so great afterwards....so happy...so light...it was the day I told him about blink. I have to say, after that talk, I felt free. I was not a bad person and it was okay. I really wished I was able to blog during that day but things came up.
I was just so happy that on my way back from the Loyola House of Studies, I was smiling, I enjoyed my walk and I even told myself and God (I was kinda talking to Him on my way back) that even if a higad would fall on me, I wouldn't mind...(I told God I was kinda kidding, I wouldn't want a higad to fall on me...but I was just so happy...I usually crack jokes with Him when I'm feeling real good). I think I even texted my friends just to tell them I was happy. I think I texted Ai and told her I remembered her when I passed by the sick leaves...hehe...
I wish I could say more about that day and that I could remember some of the things, quotable quotes, that popped into my head during that walk...but I can't. I just remember the feeling and it was a real great feeling...the kind that makes me want to jump up and down...hehe... =p
Bad day - argue with dad in Megamall about receipt
Although it wasn't a very good experience, I found that day quite memorable. It was the first time in a long time that I got into an argument/fight with my dad. I was upset because he lost my Zen's receipt, which I needed for warranty purposes. I was being a bit pushy about asking his friend to look for it and he was missing the point why the receipt was important to me. I just got real annoyed that he was dismissing me and I was stressing him out. We didn't talk for a day or two, I think...or I think I said sorry that evening or the following day.
One of the things I realized after the fight was that my dad and I are both stubborn...hehe...I told Cha that. Looking back, I think that fight showed me that my dad and I are getting pretty close. We fought and then we made up afterwards.
Day at the embassy - bonding with Kaye. Math problem and drawings. Dad funny umbrella.
The day that we got our U.S. Visa was a pretty memorable day. My sister and I got to bond while waiting...because it was a very long wait. We chatted, something we hadn't done in a long time. I missed talking with Kaye and I had forgotten how fun it was talking to her...there are certain things that only her and I understand.
When we got real bored...this was when we were waiting for our interview...I talked her into solving a math problem with me. We tried computing how much longer we would have to wait given the number of counters, the clients left to be served, and the time it took for each person to be interviewed. We made some algebraic representations. Unfortunately, we realized after a while that we simply did not have enough data and so we ended up doodling. One of her doodles was the aerial view of Batman, which looked like a fried egg...hehe...I scanned the piece of paper we doodled in, it's posted in my Multiply site. The other memorable thing during the wait was my dad playing with the umbrella. While Kei and I were busy entertaining ourselves, I guess he tried to entertain himself by playing with the umbrella. He was moving the umbrella around, like drawing circles or writing something on the floor. It was a pretty funny and fascinating site, Kei and I laughed when we saw him...hehe...
The interview went well. We got our visas. My dad had a scary moment though, he saw one of his "enemies" while we were being interviewed and so he got nervous. He kept telling us about it afterwards. After the whole thing, dad brought us to school. Kei first then me. We bought Fillet O' Fish sandwiches in McDonald's for lunch. It was pretty traffic on the way back to ADMU. I fell asleep in the car. I was kinda late for my first class. I told Sir Siojo the reason why I was late afterwards.
God makes thing work out. Check cp about was panicking but He made it okay. Philo orals too, only three thesis statements. Histo was able to do stuff, didn't even know that school was coming up already.
December 19, 2008
I don't really remember this much but I wrote in my cellphone that I was panicking because I was late and I had stuff to do. I prayed that I wouldn't be late. Fortunately, things worked out. I wasn't late because it was a free cut. I think this was the last day of classes before Christmas break. I was bringing a lot of things, gifts actually, and I had some stuff to deliver (ice cream puff orders I think). I was really panicking because I had to deliver the stuff. I think I planned on delivering them before class but I was running late and so I was worrying...I prayed. Then I was so relieved when I found out that our teacher decided to have a free cut.
Christmas break 2008
After I finished preparing for my Ph103 midterm exams, I was so thankful that there were only three thesis statements instead of the original four because I didn't think I had enough energy or brain juice to handle four. I just remember feeling real thankful that day and I felt like things were working out.
During the break, one of the things I was able to accomplish was my photographic recording of Paco Park for my Hi198.7 midterm project. I was also able to do a big chunk of the paper. I didn't realize I was accomplishing all of those during the break and so I was thankful when I realized that I did. The thing was, I didn't realize that classes were about to resume already and so I was pretty fascinated and real thankful for the whole thing.
ADDITION TO STUFF I WANT TO REMEMBER:
- It was nice how everytime I needed to ask a question for Ph104, there was always a free PC I could use (I was reviewing for LT#2).
- "Ay talaga" - when we ate in Shylin, ma mocked me...I said "Ay talaga" and she repeated it...hehe...
- "Here lives the alcohol magnate" - I forgot when this happened but there was one time when mom said this while she was going to my bed or something...hehe...
- There was also this other time when she sat on my bed, but before she sat, she fixed the blanket first so she would sit on it instead of sitting on my sheets. I just found it cute. She knew I didn't like people sitting on my sheets unless they've taken a bath and are "clean".
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
I Just Remembered
I said I would blog about this last Thursday but I was unable to because I foolishly "broke" my laptop that evening....might as well tell that story...I'm incredibly O.C. so I was cleaning my laptop similar to how I've been cleaning it the past few weeks, with a special no-scratch cloth and an appliance cleaner. While I was pouring the appliance cleaner, I either spilled some over my laptop or I put too much and I wet my keyboard while wiping it....when I opened my laptop to start working, my keyboard wouldn't function properly, the stuff that came out on screen did not correspond to the key that I would press. It even went all funky like when I would press B, B! would come out or when I would press S "TRF" would come out then the caps lock function would work inversely. I had a problem with clicking as well, multiple things would be selected whenever I clicked a single icon...well you get the picture...I got so sad and felt so stupid. I swore I would never clean my laptop again. I brought it to Megamall the following day to get it checked and they recommended that I go to the HP service center in Buendia. I made plans to go there last Monday but then my laptop miraculously resurrected and started working fine again so here I am happily typing...hehe..
Anyway, back to my real purpose. I felt happy/fascinated that Thursday (before I broke my laptop of course), my classes were straight from 3:00-7:30. I was in school past 12 as usual. I forgot what I was doing but I wasn't able to buy something I could eat between my classes and I was worrying because I got so hungry the last time I wasn't able to eat anything until after my 7:30 class. I was trying to formulate a plan in my head as to how I can buy food without being late for any of my classes (my 3:00 class was in the Social Science Building, the next one was in Bellarmine, and the last one was in CTC...nice marathon right?)...So there I was walking fast to my 3:00 class, trying real hard to think of a plan...I couldn't be late for my class because we were supposed to have a quiz...then when I entered the room the beadle announced that the teacher couldn't make it to class so we would just continue watching Yojimbo and write a paper about it for next meeting (I wasn't too happy about this but oh well, I passed the paper today...I eventually liked my paper...sort of...) and our quiz was moved next meeting. I just felt happy and I was fascinated because I felt like God resolved my worries. I was getting worried about my stomach...hehe...so after watching Yojimbo I went to the caf and bought a sandwich, which I ate while walking to Bellarmine (I think...or maybe I ate it at the caf..) =p
Hehe...it was just a simple thing but it made me smile that day. I felt like He took care of me. I enjoyed my sandwich...hehe...Thanks Lord.
Anyway, back to my real purpose. I felt happy/fascinated that Thursday (before I broke my laptop of course), my classes were straight from 3:00-7:30. I was in school past 12 as usual. I forgot what I was doing but I wasn't able to buy something I could eat between my classes and I was worrying because I got so hungry the last time I wasn't able to eat anything until after my 7:30 class. I was trying to formulate a plan in my head as to how I can buy food without being late for any of my classes (my 3:00 class was in the Social Science Building, the next one was in Bellarmine, and the last one was in CTC...nice marathon right?)...So there I was walking fast to my 3:00 class, trying real hard to think of a plan...I couldn't be late for my class because we were supposed to have a quiz...then when I entered the room the beadle announced that the teacher couldn't make it to class so we would just continue watching Yojimbo and write a paper about it for next meeting (I wasn't too happy about this but oh well, I passed the paper today...I eventually liked my paper...sort of...) and our quiz was moved next meeting. I just felt happy and I was fascinated because I felt like God resolved my worries. I was getting worried about my stomach...hehe...so after watching Yojimbo I went to the caf and bought a sandwich, which I ate while walking to Bellarmine (I think...or maybe I ate it at the caf..) =p
Hehe...it was just a simple thing but it made me smile that day. I felt like He took care of me. I enjoyed my sandwich...hehe...Thanks Lord.
Monday, December 8, 2008
Cute Sister Moments
Just a quick note before I take a bath and continue working tonight...two funny, cute, and I guess interesting things related to Kaye happened today.
1. We ate lunch together, just the two of us, and we got to talking...something we haven't done in a while (we barely see each other these days), before this we watched a few episodes of FRIENDS together. Anyway, the funny thing was when I was about to leave, I was walking towards her with the intention of kissing her cheek...I usually eat with my mom and grandma and I kiss them before I leave so I guess I got used to it and I was about to do it to Kaye. I was near her already when I realized what I was about to do and I stopped and said I was about to kiss you. Then we both laughed and she said, "I knew it. I felt that you were about to kiss me. I was wondering, what is she doing? Why is she going near me, is she going to wash her hands?" (The sink was behind her..hehe)...We just both laughed. I couldn't stop laughing until I left the house.
2. Kaye didn't have classes today...I was still asleep when I heard my mom waking her up and then she said she didn't have classes today because it was gig day. During lunch, I asked her why she didn't have classes and I heard her say it was gig day. So all day long I thought she didn't have classes because there was a gig in school, it made sense to me...(but I guess I didn't give it much thought..hehe...) When my mom and Cha picked me up, the topic came up again, and I heard gig day again. Then my mom and Cha made me realize that Kaye didn't have classes because it was Taguig day. So they both laughed at me and I told Kaye about it. Then we just all laughed about it during dinner. So I again was the weird one...hehe...
Funny and cute..hehe..gotta take a bath now...still have to polish my paper and review for a quiz... Thanks for the nice day Lord... :)
1. We ate lunch together, just the two of us, and we got to talking...something we haven't done in a while (we barely see each other these days), before this we watched a few episodes of FRIENDS together. Anyway, the funny thing was when I was about to leave, I was walking towards her with the intention of kissing her cheek...I usually eat with my mom and grandma and I kiss them before I leave so I guess I got used to it and I was about to do it to Kaye. I was near her already when I realized what I was about to do and I stopped and said I was about to kiss you. Then we both laughed and she said, "I knew it. I felt that you were about to kiss me. I was wondering, what is she doing? Why is she going near me, is she going to wash her hands?" (The sink was behind her..hehe)...We just both laughed. I couldn't stop laughing until I left the house.
2. Kaye didn't have classes today...I was still asleep when I heard my mom waking her up and then she said she didn't have classes today because it was gig day. During lunch, I asked her why she didn't have classes and I heard her say it was gig day. So all day long I thought she didn't have classes because there was a gig in school, it made sense to me...(but I guess I didn't give it much thought..hehe...) When my mom and Cha picked me up, the topic came up again, and I heard gig day again. Then my mom and Cha made me realize that Kaye didn't have classes because it was Taguig day. So they both laughed at me and I told Kaye about it. Then we just all laughed about it during dinner. So I again was the weird one...hehe...
Funny and cute..hehe..gotta take a bath now...still have to polish my paper and review for a quiz... Thanks for the nice day Lord... :)
Friday, December 5, 2008
Just Some Stuff I Wanted to Remember
This won't make much sense, these are things I noted on my cellphone, things that struck me and wanted to remember...I don't remember the details very well, but I'll do what I can..(I want to erase them from my calendar notes on my phone so I can put other reminders, hehe)
September 18, 2008 (I don't think this is the date when these things happened but it's the date I wrote these down. I think I was planning on blogging this day or something and I wanted to note the things I wanted to talk about)
It's going to be okay. Chapel text foster family. Sir Tirol comment. Basketball Olympics.
I think I was referring to our horrible Theo 141 immersion report, although Sir Soler said it was half good, half bad. I just felt so bad because I felt like I didn't do my job well as the leader or the one in charge so I was praying about it in the chapel then I think I received a text message from my immersion family and it just made me feel better. I told them what happened. But the fact that they texted at that moment just gave me the feeling that it was okay; it was alright that our report didn't turn out well.
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I was talking to Sir Tirol and I somehow ended up mentioning that I went to OBMC for high school and he goes, "You're from OB Montessori?! Really?!" He couldn't believe I was from OB then he says, "Well, you must've been the exception there..."
I just found it pretty flattering and I wanted to remember it. I miss Sir Tirol's classes...He's the best.
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I don't remember which part about the basketball olympics I was talking about but I have an idea and I will just blog about it next time. Keywords: video, crazy, obsessed, online, desperate, trip to Cha...hehe...
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September 24, 2008
Nice people surprisingly and inspiringly kind though just met. Ate Myla. Give gift.
I met Ate Myla this sem because of my desperate attempt to get tickets to game 2 of the ADMU-DLSU UAAP championship match. It's amazing how some people are so kind and nice to people they just met. I was able to get three upper B tickets because of her. I got my own ticket for free, she just gave it to me because her sibling didn't want to watch by herself and then she looked for two other tickets for me so that I could have a companion when I watch. I wanted to pay her for my ticket but she didn't want to accept it, she just said "Basta sa akin, mag-enjoy ka lang, masaya na ako. Tama na 'yon." It's inspiring and moving when you meet people like that. It's nice I made a friend.
** Manong from the LS Bookstore is another friend I made because of my obsession with ADMU championship shirts...will try to talk about him next time ***
*** Kuya Jessie's the first friend I made because of UAAP tickets, we go way back to 3rd year 1st sem. He was on leave and that's how I met Ate Myla. ***
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November 8, 2008
Funny how people, mom, put my blanket on when she went to my bed.
It's funny how people know you and get used to you, almost anticipating your reaction so they do certain things around you. When my mom sat on my bed, she put the cover on first so she wouldn't sit on my bed sheet per se. She knew I was picky about that. I mean, she really fixed the blanket and I just found it cute.
It's synonymous to how Aileen opens her palm and puts her hand out when she asks for alcohol. She knows I don't let other people touch my alcohol and she was surprised when I let her pour the alcohol herself (Tagaytay Steakhouse). And also when she asks, "Pwede ko ba hawakan?" before she touches my things...hehe...
December 3, 2008
Cried today. Felt better. Felt like God is really there for me and it felt nice.
I don't remember why I cried. But I know I was in the chapel and I just did. Then I just felt like God was there for me and I felt better. It felt real nice to be comforted by Him. Thanks Lord. =)
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December 18, 2008
Sir Soh greeted me. Nice.
(Note: I'm taking a break from writing my Theo paper...hehe)...
I approached Sir Soh after class (I usually do that because I ask questions, makulit ako, I know..hehe...), I asked my question and he answered it. Afterwards, when I was about to leave he said "Merry Christmas," I know it was just a simple and normal thing to do but it was a sincere and heartfelt greeting and it just felt nice, especially coming from a teacher. I smiled (I think) and greeted him Merry Christmas as well. The entire thing made me feel good despite my bothersome cold and I happily fast-walked to my next class (which was all the way in CTC)... =)
Thanks Mr. Soh. Thank you Lord. (Back to writing paper, have to finish it soon...it's past 1 a.m.)
September 18, 2008 (I don't think this is the date when these things happened but it's the date I wrote these down. I think I was planning on blogging this day or something and I wanted to note the things I wanted to talk about)
It's going to be okay. Chapel text foster family. Sir Tirol comment. Basketball Olympics.
I think I was referring to our horrible Theo 141 immersion report, although Sir Soler said it was half good, half bad. I just felt so bad because I felt like I didn't do my job well as the leader or the one in charge so I was praying about it in the chapel then I think I received a text message from my immersion family and it just made me feel better. I told them what happened. But the fact that they texted at that moment just gave me the feeling that it was okay; it was alright that our report didn't turn out well.
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I was talking to Sir Tirol and I somehow ended up mentioning that I went to OBMC for high school and he goes, "You're from OB Montessori?! Really?!" He couldn't believe I was from OB then he says, "Well, you must've been the exception there..."
I just found it pretty flattering and I wanted to remember it. I miss Sir Tirol's classes...He's the best.
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I don't remember which part about the basketball olympics I was talking about but I have an idea and I will just blog about it next time. Keywords: video, crazy, obsessed, online, desperate, trip to Cha...hehe...
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September 24, 2008
Nice people surprisingly and inspiringly kind though just met. Ate Myla. Give gift.
I met Ate Myla this sem because of my desperate attempt to get tickets to game 2 of the ADMU-DLSU UAAP championship match. It's amazing how some people are so kind and nice to people they just met. I was able to get three upper B tickets because of her. I got my own ticket for free, she just gave it to me because her sibling didn't want to watch by herself and then she looked for two other tickets for me so that I could have a companion when I watch. I wanted to pay her for my ticket but she didn't want to accept it, she just said "Basta sa akin, mag-enjoy ka lang, masaya na ako. Tama na 'yon." It's inspiring and moving when you meet people like that. It's nice I made a friend.
** Manong from the LS Bookstore is another friend I made because of my obsession with ADMU championship shirts...will try to talk about him next time ***
*** Kuya Jessie's the first friend I made because of UAAP tickets, we go way back to 3rd year 1st sem. He was on leave and that's how I met Ate Myla. ***
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November 8, 2008
Funny how people, mom, put my blanket on when she went to my bed.
It's funny how people know you and get used to you, almost anticipating your reaction so they do certain things around you. When my mom sat on my bed, she put the cover on first so she wouldn't sit on my bed sheet per se. She knew I was picky about that. I mean, she really fixed the blanket and I just found it cute.
It's synonymous to how Aileen opens her palm and puts her hand out when she asks for alcohol. She knows I don't let other people touch my alcohol and she was surprised when I let her pour the alcohol herself (Tagaytay Steakhouse). And also when she asks, "Pwede ko ba hawakan?" before she touches my things...hehe...
December 3, 2008
Cried today. Felt better. Felt like God is really there for me and it felt nice.
I don't remember why I cried. But I know I was in the chapel and I just did. Then I just felt like God was there for me and I felt better. It felt real nice to be comforted by Him. Thanks Lord. =)
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December 18, 2008
Sir Soh greeted me. Nice.
(Note: I'm taking a break from writing my Theo paper...hehe)...
I approached Sir Soh after class (I usually do that because I ask questions, makulit ako, I know..hehe...), I asked my question and he answered it. Afterwards, when I was about to leave he said "Merry Christmas," I know it was just a simple and normal thing to do but it was a sincere and heartfelt greeting and it just felt nice, especially coming from a teacher. I smiled (I think) and greeted him Merry Christmas as well. The entire thing made me feel good despite my bothersome cold and I happily fast-walked to my next class (which was all the way in CTC)... =)
Thanks Mr. Soh. Thank you Lord. (Back to writing paper, have to finish it soon...it's past 1 a.m.)
A Week Late
I've been wanting to blog...but things kept coming up, I just never found the time so this is a week late...it kinda sucks 'cause the magic's all gone now. I'm actually pretty tired, not exactly in the best condition to blog but I thought if I don't do it now, I'll never get to do it so here goes...
Last week was a tough week for me. I think I had three group reports and three papers, plus a bunch of readings. I think I also had one quiz. I remember being all excited about my busy week the Friday before it (2 Fridays ago). I was in the restroom right after my LS136 class, I ran through the things I had to do in my head and I felt ready to take on the challenge. I was pumped and ready...
But then...we baked for our bazaar, ended up sleeping at around 4:30 am, I couldn't fall asleep right away, had to listen to my ZEN to put me to sleep. Anyway, woke up around 6:30, so I had around two hours of sleep. Got ready for the bazaar, kinda woke up after taking a bath, stayed in the booth 'till the afternoon. I was already feeling tired and sleepy then...I think I was starting to feel disoriented too, that happens to me when I don't get enough sleep, I think it happens to everyone. Anyway, I just felt real messed up. Left in the afternoon around 3 pm I think, went home. Didn't feel like sleeping, played b-ball (my previous blog talked about this)....took a bath since I got sweaty. Was feeling real bad then. I was a bit upset I think, I was starting to worry about all the things I had to do. All the excitement faded because I knew and felt that I wasn't in the condition to work. All my energy was just drained...plus I was all disoriented and messed up so I guess I was a bit fragile then....my mom asked me a question and I kind of answered in a not so normal manner, I mean I might have sounded annoyed when I answered...I didn't mean to but I think I was real sleepy and I was trying to relax because I was panicking and having a headache, I was listening to my ZEN to calm myself down. Well, anyway, my mom didn't take my response so well and she got mad at me, said I was grouchy again when all she was doing was supporting me and all. I felt real bad, like that was the last straw, I was feeling so bad already and then that happened, I couldn't take the emotional blow...I was fragile, I didn't mean for any of it to happen. I just felt bad because my mom was mad at me. On top of that, I had a bunch of things to do and I wasn't in the condition to do any of them.
So I cried...I cried silently in the car and I tried to hide it from my mom. Finally when we got to church, I went straight to the adoration chapel and just cried it all out. I felt better afterwards.
My mom and I made up during dinner and I told her how I felt about what happened, how I cried and felt so bad because I was so stressed and then she got mad at me. She said sorry and I said sorry too.
Anyway, that wasn't what I was really supposed to talk about, although I think I said in my previous entry that I would do that. I just wanted to highlight how magical my past week was. So I didn't get much work done over the weekend and so I wondered how in the world was I going to get through all that I had to do. I can't exactly detail it right now, maybe I'll try to next time, but the week just went by and I was miraculously able to do all that I had to do and I did quite well. My group reports went fine, I think they were all good and quite pleasing to the professor...I gotta give credit to my groupmates, especially Kate, who pulled through for me...lesson learned from that I don't have to do everything, I don't have to carry the burden; I can turn to other people for help (actually I think in one of my talks with God that week, Monday probably, He told me that I didn't have to do everything). My papers were fine too. I got one back today, got a 3.7 (quite disappointed I didn't get an A though, but it's alright). I liked my history paper a lot, I might post the draft here or something, Cha said she liked it too. I don't know about my LS127 paper but I think it was pretty decent. I got an A in my quiz for that week, got it back yesterday. Still have a bunch of readings, but I'm getting there...managing at least.
I just couldn't believe I got through that whole week. I know God helped me...I mean, really, I wouldn't have been able to get through that week without Him and now that I think about it, the week seemed to have gone by quickly and easily. I remember feeling so happy last Friday or even Thursday evening. I remember telling Ai, "My week of suffering is almost over..." Right now I don't remember the suffering, although I know it was a tough week. I wish I could express it more beautifully and accurately, but I can't...the magic of the moment is somewhat gone, but I just really wanted to thank God for that week....He saved me...I wanted this blog to be a tribute to Him, but I don't think I did justice to it. I wish I could've written this better but this is what I've got right now, it's the best I can do for now...just really wanted to say Thanks Lord... :)
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Words just can't express how I feel right now...I didn't expect to feel overwhelmed again, but I am. I'm overflowing with gratitude.
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Last week was a tough week for me. I think I had three group reports and three papers, plus a bunch of readings. I think I also had one quiz. I remember being all excited about my busy week the Friday before it (2 Fridays ago). I was in the restroom right after my LS136 class, I ran through the things I had to do in my head and I felt ready to take on the challenge. I was pumped and ready...
But then...we baked for our bazaar, ended up sleeping at around 4:30 am, I couldn't fall asleep right away, had to listen to my ZEN to put me to sleep. Anyway, woke up around 6:30, so I had around two hours of sleep. Got ready for the bazaar, kinda woke up after taking a bath, stayed in the booth 'till the afternoon. I was already feeling tired and sleepy then...I think I was starting to feel disoriented too, that happens to me when I don't get enough sleep, I think it happens to everyone. Anyway, I just felt real messed up. Left in the afternoon around 3 pm I think, went home. Didn't feel like sleeping, played b-ball (my previous blog talked about this)....took a bath since I got sweaty. Was feeling real bad then. I was a bit upset I think, I was starting to worry about all the things I had to do. All the excitement faded because I knew and felt that I wasn't in the condition to work. All my energy was just drained...plus I was all disoriented and messed up so I guess I was a bit fragile then....my mom asked me a question and I kind of answered in a not so normal manner, I mean I might have sounded annoyed when I answered...I didn't mean to but I think I was real sleepy and I was trying to relax because I was panicking and having a headache, I was listening to my ZEN to calm myself down. Well, anyway, my mom didn't take my response so well and she got mad at me, said I was grouchy again when all she was doing was supporting me and all. I felt real bad, like that was the last straw, I was feeling so bad already and then that happened, I couldn't take the emotional blow...I was fragile, I didn't mean for any of it to happen. I just felt bad because my mom was mad at me. On top of that, I had a bunch of things to do and I wasn't in the condition to do any of them.
So I cried...I cried silently in the car and I tried to hide it from my mom. Finally when we got to church, I went straight to the adoration chapel and just cried it all out. I felt better afterwards.
My mom and I made up during dinner and I told her how I felt about what happened, how I cried and felt so bad because I was so stressed and then she got mad at me. She said sorry and I said sorry too.
Anyway, that wasn't what I was really supposed to talk about, although I think I said in my previous entry that I would do that. I just wanted to highlight how magical my past week was. So I didn't get much work done over the weekend and so I wondered how in the world was I going to get through all that I had to do. I can't exactly detail it right now, maybe I'll try to next time, but the week just went by and I was miraculously able to do all that I had to do and I did quite well. My group reports went fine, I think they were all good and quite pleasing to the professor...I gotta give credit to my groupmates, especially Kate, who pulled through for me...lesson learned from that I don't have to do everything, I don't have to carry the burden; I can turn to other people for help (actually I think in one of my talks with God that week, Monday probably, He told me that I didn't have to do everything). My papers were fine too. I got one back today, got a 3.7 (quite disappointed I didn't get an A though, but it's alright). I liked my history paper a lot, I might post the draft here or something, Cha said she liked it too. I don't know about my LS127 paper but I think it was pretty decent. I got an A in my quiz for that week, got it back yesterday. Still have a bunch of readings, but I'm getting there...managing at least.
I just couldn't believe I got through that whole week. I know God helped me...I mean, really, I wouldn't have been able to get through that week without Him and now that I think about it, the week seemed to have gone by quickly and easily. I remember feeling so happy last Friday or even Thursday evening. I remember telling Ai, "My week of suffering is almost over..." Right now I don't remember the suffering, although I know it was a tough week. I wish I could express it more beautifully and accurately, but I can't...the magic of the moment is somewhat gone, but I just really wanted to thank God for that week....He saved me...I wanted this blog to be a tribute to Him, but I don't think I did justice to it. I wish I could've written this better but this is what I've got right now, it's the best I can do for now...just really wanted to say Thanks Lord... :)
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Words just can't express how I feel right now...I didn't expect to feel overwhelmed again, but I am. I'm overflowing with gratitude.
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Saturday, November 22, 2008
Not Well
I'm not okay right now...although I think I'm doing better than I was a while ago. Feeling a mixture of things...scared, stressed, a bit of panic, sad, upset...just not well. Slept past 4am, prepared for the bazaar today...stop by if you can...La Vista Village, visit Legendairy Ice Cream Puffs and buy from us...that'll cheer me up a bit...we'll have another bazaar next week, November 29-30 then December 13-14 in QC Sports Club...
Anyway, I'm loaded with stuff to do...it's no joke...I was kinda okay with it yesterday, I mean I was even excited to be working hard again. I was still upbeat about everything after my LS136 class. But then I guess the lack of sleep got me. I just feel real tired. Can't function well without proper sleep and I've got to do so many things. It just so happened that my papers and reports all got scheduled this week. I've got three papers and two group reports. I'm not even thinking about my readings right now.
It's probably the lack of sleep, I don't even know what time I got up but I guess it was around 6:30-7:00 in the morning. It just felt scary. I mean I've been having this fear that whatever happened during my second semester in third year might happen again. I mean, I've been feeling a bit of pressure lately and I've been feeling like my old self again, the anxious and pressured one. The easy-going me is gone. But I guess it's just normal, I'm just trying to find the mean right now. Nonetheless, it scares me.
* my laptop keeps on acting up and it's freakin' want to blog...and I can't even do that peacefully...damn it! *
I'm just really not in a good mood right now and I need an outlet. I tried playing b-ball, it helped a bit, though I wasn't having a good shooting day either. I was trying to look for someone to talk to but people weren't available. I remember talking to myself and telling my basketball, "so I guess it's just you and me..." Felt better after accomplishing my ten-consecutive shots goal. I even did it twice just to appease me because after completing myfirst ten...
** Had to go to Church so I stopped...something happened on the way to Church, will talk about it next time, too sleepy right now...but generally better, still lotsa work though... **
Anyway, I'm loaded with stuff to do...it's no joke...I was kinda okay with it yesterday, I mean I was even excited to be working hard again. I was still upbeat about everything after my LS136 class. But then I guess the lack of sleep got me. I just feel real tired. Can't function well without proper sleep and I've got to do so many things. It just so happened that my papers and reports all got scheduled this week. I've got three papers and two group reports. I'm not even thinking about my readings right now.
It's probably the lack of sleep, I don't even know what time I got up but I guess it was around 6:30-7:00 in the morning. It just felt scary. I mean I've been having this fear that whatever happened during my second semester in third year might happen again. I mean, I've been feeling a bit of pressure lately and I've been feeling like my old self again, the anxious and pressured one. The easy-going me is gone. But I guess it's just normal, I'm just trying to find the mean right now. Nonetheless, it scares me.
* my laptop keeps on acting up and it's freakin' want to blog...and I can't even do that peacefully...damn it! *
I'm just really not in a good mood right now and I need an outlet. I tried playing b-ball, it helped a bit, though I wasn't having a good shooting day either. I was trying to look for someone to talk to but people weren't available. I remember talking to myself and telling my basketball, "so I guess it's just you and me..." Felt better after accomplishing my ten-consecutive shots goal. I even did it twice just to appease me because after completing myfirst ten...
** Had to go to Church so I stopped...something happened on the way to Church, will talk about it next time, too sleepy right now...but generally better, still lotsa work though... **
Thursday, November 20, 2008
...
Not sure how to start...I'm tired...I was excited to blog a while ago, while I was in school, and I thought about it but was too lazy to get the laptop and stuff..
My mock interview went well so that got me all hyped. My interviewer was real nice. He gave me real nice comments...He told me to relax though, I was too stiff..and He told me to tweak my resume to champion my achievements more. I'll probably detail this more next time, I'm too tired to be excited right now...I'm not doing the experience justice, I'd like to describe it better because it was real nice.
I think I'm stressed...my soles are swollen...and that's a usually a sign. People have been commenting that I looked stress and sad yesterday...I wasn't really stressed or sad then, I think I was just sleepy because I had to get up early. I got used to sleeping kinda late and waking up kinda late since my classes are in the afternoon...earliest is at 12:30...But I've been having meetings here and there the past few days so I had to start my day earlier than usual.
Today was a different story though. After being all hyped because of my interview, I went into depressed mode...just felt sad...lonely...reality was kinda sinking in again. Then I guess I got a bit stressed in the afternoon, I have so many things to do but I haven't started any and I think thinking about them stressed me out. "Baking" was pretty tiring, I didn't do as much as the others did but I still got tired. Cleaning up was a bit stressful I think.
So I tried unwinding, or trying am trying to unwind by blogging, chatting, watching btv (I forgot to blog about it because I've been busy, will blog about it next time if I remember, we finally have btv! The digibox was installed yesterday...yey!!!) and checking my mail so I'm at least productive.
Wished I could have written this better but I guess I'm real tired...will sleep in a while...have to wake up at 9...that's early for me...hehe...
Thanks for the nice and good interview Lord... =)
*** Oh yeah, most of my NBA teams lost today...the Spurs, Bulls...and the other ones I rooted for like Cleveland, Milwaukee, and Miami...the Kings won though...still not sure if the Rockets won, will check it right now.. ***
My mock interview went well so that got me all hyped. My interviewer was real nice. He gave me real nice comments...He told me to relax though, I was too stiff..and He told me to tweak my resume to champion my achievements more. I'll probably detail this more next time, I'm too tired to be excited right now...I'm not doing the experience justice, I'd like to describe it better because it was real nice.
I think I'm stressed...my soles are swollen...and that's a usually a sign. People have been commenting that I looked stress and sad yesterday...I wasn't really stressed or sad then, I think I was just sleepy because I had to get up early. I got used to sleeping kinda late and waking up kinda late since my classes are in the afternoon...earliest is at 12:30...But I've been having meetings here and there the past few days so I had to start my day earlier than usual.
Today was a different story though. After being all hyped because of my interview, I went into depressed mode...just felt sad...lonely...reality was kinda sinking in again. Then I guess I got a bit stressed in the afternoon, I have so many things to do but I haven't started any and I think thinking about them stressed me out. "Baking" was pretty tiring, I didn't do as much as the others did but I still got tired. Cleaning up was a bit stressful I think.
So I tried unwinding, or trying am trying to unwind by blogging, chatting, watching btv (I forgot to blog about it because I've been busy, will blog about it next time if I remember, we finally have btv! The digibox was installed yesterday...yey!!!) and checking my mail so I'm at least productive.
Wished I could have written this better but I guess I'm real tired...will sleep in a while...have to wake up at 9...that's early for me...hehe...
Thanks for the nice and good interview Lord... =)
*** Oh yeah, most of my NBA teams lost today...the Spurs, Bulls...and the other ones I rooted for like Cleveland, Milwaukee, and Miami...the Kings won though...still not sure if the Rockets won, will check it right now.. ***
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Pissed
I wasn't gonna blog tonight although I had a pretty nice day...
But I just really got pissed and I'm kinda angry right now...I just had to let it out somehow. I can't exactly scream because it's late and people are sleeping...I can't play basketball because I already took a shower and I'm in my pj's already...so I'll just write...
I'm not gonna say anything bad right now because I don't want to offend anyone and I know I'm just pissed off. I'm just pretty irritated right now. People just get annoying sometimes and I don't take that against them because we all get annoying and weird at times. I'm just real annoyed right now and I'm just trying to let it pass. I'm just real annoyed.
Trust...why is it so hard to trust again...should I blame myself or is my skepticism and doubt justified? I know there has to be a limit...but it's just hard to trust, especially when it comes to particular things...a part of me wants to apologize for my lack of trust, but a part of me feels like it is justified...I mean trust is hard to regain once someone breaks it right?
A part of me feels bad for being suspicious and I wish I can help it...but it's just hard...I hope it gets better...is it my fault?
*** Think this'll do for now...still not that okay, but I think it's time to occupy myself with other things...still have to work... ***
*** They say depression is repressed anger...they say your feelings will come out one way or another, if you try to bottle it up, it'll eventually explode...I learned these the hard way, so my resolution is to let it out...at least in that way, you control how it goes out...I think it's healthier. ***
But I just really got pissed and I'm kinda angry right now...I just had to let it out somehow. I can't exactly scream because it's late and people are sleeping...I can't play basketball because I already took a shower and I'm in my pj's already...so I'll just write...
I'm not gonna say anything bad right now because I don't want to offend anyone and I know I'm just pissed off. I'm just pretty irritated right now. People just get annoying sometimes and I don't take that against them because we all get annoying and weird at times. I'm just real annoyed right now and I'm just trying to let it pass. I'm just real annoyed.
Trust...why is it so hard to trust again...should I blame myself or is my skepticism and doubt justified? I know there has to be a limit...but it's just hard to trust, especially when it comes to particular things...a part of me wants to apologize for my lack of trust, but a part of me feels like it is justified...I mean trust is hard to regain once someone breaks it right?
A part of me feels bad for being suspicious and I wish I can help it...but it's just hard...I hope it gets better...is it my fault?
*** Think this'll do for now...still not that okay, but I think it's time to occupy myself with other things...still have to work... ***
*** They say depression is repressed anger...they say your feelings will come out one way or another, if you try to bottle it up, it'll eventually explode...I learned these the hard way, so my resolution is to let it out...at least in that way, you control how it goes out...I think it's healthier. ***
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Fantastic Contraptions
This was entertaining, learned about it from Isabela then I got kinda hooked...but not as much as her...haha...I told Cha about it and she got hooked...here are my contraptions..the first one is the best, the limping dino...it cracked me up, I felt bad seeing other people's contraptions though...it was my first contraption and I thought I had to use the triangle thing so I made a complicated contraption when I couldv'e made a simpler one...that's why I felt bad when I saw the other contraptions, hehe...it's funny though...it really made me laugh, it made Cha and Blowfish laugh too..hehe...
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Another Late Blog
I'm not in working condition right now, I feel like my brain is covered in haze right now and I'm not in the mood to do anything else and I have to wait for 12:30am so I can take my antibiotic. The Nanny Diaries is on right now but I'd really rather blog and there are a lot of things I said I would blog about anyway...
Well since my brain is all hazy, I find it very difficult to recall anything that has happened the past days...all I remember are the highlights, at least those things that really struck me...
Friday, November 14, 2008
This was a good day for me mainly due to my talk with Ms.Thomas which made me feel better. I think I also got to finish my Theo reading this day, I'm not sure but I was starting my Hi16.7 reading. I also got to photocopy my Hi198.7 readings, there were no classes so there was no line, although I kinda had an adventure retrieving the stuff I photocopied..it was kinda my fault for leaving them too long...I left them with the photocopy lady and said I would come back for them. I wasn't expecting to talk with Ms.Thomas then but she texted that she was free so I went to her office and we talked for about two hours I think. I finally felt satisfied with the shirt I bought from the A-shop, I was supposed to exchange it but when I tried on the other shirt, I realized that my shirt fit me better so I just decided to keep it (I wore it today by the way)...
Oh, my morning was pretty good too...at least part of it was, I called Adidas Rockwell and Gateway, I got a bit sad that I didn't receive their text about the arrival of the championship shirts, Rockwell didn't have XS anymore...I called Gateway and they still had XS so I had it reserved and said I would get it the following day. I told them to reserve blue and white for me so I can choose betweent the two...hehe...it just felt like the things I was hoping and waiting for were falling into place so I felt good. I've been waiting for those shirts.
My day wasn't as productive as I wanted it to be workwise, but I had a good day nonetheless...I know I had a nice quiet time and then I had that nice chat with Ms. Thomas. Hans and I had a bit of fun playing with the E-strat software. LS136 was okay, it seems interesting, although I'm trying to shake off the pressure to do real good. It seems like an easy and interesting class so I don't wanna mess it up. Hans, Ai, and I had a pretty fun talk after class, mostly about business but it was fine. Then on the way to the CWL concert, I found Hans' and Ai's messages entertaining; I was fond of them so I saved them...Hans also said some real nice and sweet things...I'm glad to have those two as my friends.
I was real hungry so I "entertained" my mom and Cha at the concert, they could tell I was hungry...hehe...watching Jonathan Badon again was cool, he's still real good. I had a picture taken with him and I had my CD signed. I got two CDs this day, one from my mom and one from Cha...so that was nice. I was feeling real good so I volunteered to be Cha's partner during the ballroom dancing, I couldn't dance the swing and she couldn't boogie...hehe...but it was entertaining, I rarely volunteer to dance...haha...
I don't know what was up with me, maybe it was just the good talk with Ms. Thomas but I was singing outside the clubhouse while listening to my ZEN, I just felt good..hehe...my mom was hungry so we had a midnight snack in Tropical Hut. I wanted to blog when I got home but I was too tired.
Saturday, November 15, 2008 - Sunday, November 16, 2008
This was a pretty nice day for me. I woke up late and missed the Rockets-Spurs game because I had a doctor's appointment but it was a nice day. I got to go to my two doctors so that was an accomplishment for me. Then Cha and I went to Gateway to pick up my Adidas shirt. We ate in Taco Bell, had a little fight but was okay after a while. I enjoyed my quesadilla and the half-taco.
My favorite part of the day was finding my sheep planner. I was starting to get sad because I felt like I wasn't gonna get it anymore but then I saw it in Megamall. I was already making plans to visit a lot of malls just to look for it. I asked Cha if she wanted to watch Madagascar 2 in Glorietta that night so we can check the National Bookstore there. Then I was assigning her to check in both NBs in Greenhills. I was planning on walking to Podium from Megamall just to check the NB there and then I was already trying to think of when we could go to Galleria to check..but all of these weren't necessary because I found the planner in Megamall. We asked the saleslady if they still had the Hallmark planners and she said they should be by the counter...on my way to the counter, I saw a planner in the corner of my eye, I saw the one with the dog with green glasses, then I stuck my hand to the counter and grabbed two planners....I turned the around and it was the sheep planner!!! Two of them...Cha was on her way to the other counter and I ran to her, made a funny noise then showed her the planners...I felt like a kid, I was so happy...I'm not sure if I was jumping around..hehe...
I smiled and said "God loves me"...I was really starting to feel down. I was praying that I find the sheep planner...again it just felt like the things I hoped and waited for were falling into place, it was just a nice feeling...especially now that I've been feeling lonely every now and then.
Cha and I picked up her puzzle then after walking around the mall, we went to Church. Then we had dinner in Latizze where my cousin Nic worked. The food was good, I recommend the place...I was stuffed after dinner, which wasn't good because I felt like going to bed once I got home...hehe...I took my shower so that woke me up a bit and I got to read a few pages of my Hi16.7 reading before falling asleep. Cha woke me up when she went to the room but I was still sleepy...I finally got up around 12:30 to drink my antibiotic, ate cereal, helped Cha with her puzzle then resumed reading until about 2am. I finished until page 34 (I think) before deciding to sleep.
***
Was real sleepy when I woke up in the morning. I can't remember the first thing I did but I know I switched the channel to CS9 to catch my NBA for the day then my dad called and we agreed to meet in a while so I took a bath, ate lunch, continued reading while waiting for him...then Cha and I went with him to MOA to get my Zen checked and to get another copy of my receipt. I bought a meal in Subway, one of my fave places to eat, I stop by Subway whenever I have the chance to, I love their oatmeal cookies and I miss their subs. I wanted to be home before 2pm so that I could catch the UAAP-NCAA All-Star game but we stopped by S&R. We bought some stuff, toiletries mostly...I have two giant shampoos, hehe...my dad pretty much gave me permission to get whatever...it was his friend who paid...I didn't get too many things, just the things I needed and some things I liked like Hawaiian Punch...the bill was around 15k. Then he drove us home. I found out that it was okay that I didn't get home at 2pm because it was just the juniors' game. I read more Hi16.7 (mostly during commercial break) and watched the 3-point shootout, dunk contest, and a few seconds of the seniors' game. I had to go to Shang to get my picture taken for my resume...so Cha and I went, she put make-up on me and stuff. We dropped off something for my mom's friend in church before going home.
We ate dinner with mom and ma then I watched what was left of the seniors' game, UAAP won...yey! Mom and Cha watched with me and Ma dropped by too...she showed us some old pictures and I had another Ma Moment. After the game we went home. I took a shower, fixed my things...
Once I was in bed, I found myself not in the mood for anything else but writing so here I am...hehe...The Nanny Diaries just finished, I didn't pay much attention to the movie but it seemed nice. I saw a part of Premonition and got sad because Jim died, I thought he lived but then he didn't...I saw that movie in the cinema before, forgot the ending...but I was reminded today and it made me sad...hehe...
I'm blabbing too much already...guess I'll stop now...hehe...
(I still have to wait for 12:30....darn....The Holiday is next...I've seen it thrice already, I think)
Well since my brain is all hazy, I find it very difficult to recall anything that has happened the past days...all I remember are the highlights, at least those things that really struck me...
Friday, November 14, 2008
This was a good day for me mainly due to my talk with Ms.Thomas which made me feel better. I think I also got to finish my Theo reading this day, I'm not sure but I was starting my Hi16.7 reading. I also got to photocopy my Hi198.7 readings, there were no classes so there was no line, although I kinda had an adventure retrieving the stuff I photocopied..it was kinda my fault for leaving them too long...I left them with the photocopy lady and said I would come back for them. I wasn't expecting to talk with Ms.Thomas then but she texted that she was free so I went to her office and we talked for about two hours I think. I finally felt satisfied with the shirt I bought from the A-shop, I was supposed to exchange it but when I tried on the other shirt, I realized that my shirt fit me better so I just decided to keep it (I wore it today by the way)...
Oh, my morning was pretty good too...at least part of it was, I called Adidas Rockwell and Gateway, I got a bit sad that I didn't receive their text about the arrival of the championship shirts, Rockwell didn't have XS anymore...I called Gateway and they still had XS so I had it reserved and said I would get it the following day. I told them to reserve blue and white for me so I can choose betweent the two...hehe...it just felt like the things I was hoping and waiting for were falling into place so I felt good. I've been waiting for those shirts.
My day wasn't as productive as I wanted it to be workwise, but I had a good day nonetheless...I know I had a nice quiet time and then I had that nice chat with Ms. Thomas. Hans and I had a bit of fun playing with the E-strat software. LS136 was okay, it seems interesting, although I'm trying to shake off the pressure to do real good. It seems like an easy and interesting class so I don't wanna mess it up. Hans, Ai, and I had a pretty fun talk after class, mostly about business but it was fine. Then on the way to the CWL concert, I found Hans' and Ai's messages entertaining; I was fond of them so I saved them...Hans also said some real nice and sweet things...I'm glad to have those two as my friends.
I was real hungry so I "entertained" my mom and Cha at the concert, they could tell I was hungry...hehe...watching Jonathan Badon again was cool, he's still real good. I had a picture taken with him and I had my CD signed. I got two CDs this day, one from my mom and one from Cha...so that was nice. I was feeling real good so I volunteered to be Cha's partner during the ballroom dancing, I couldn't dance the swing and she couldn't boogie...hehe...but it was entertaining, I rarely volunteer to dance...haha...
I don't know what was up with me, maybe it was just the good talk with Ms. Thomas but I was singing outside the clubhouse while listening to my ZEN, I just felt good..hehe...my mom was hungry so we had a midnight snack in Tropical Hut. I wanted to blog when I got home but I was too tired.
Saturday, November 15, 2008 - Sunday, November 16, 2008
This was a pretty nice day for me. I woke up late and missed the Rockets-Spurs game because I had a doctor's appointment but it was a nice day. I got to go to my two doctors so that was an accomplishment for me. Then Cha and I went to Gateway to pick up my Adidas shirt. We ate in Taco Bell, had a little fight but was okay after a while. I enjoyed my quesadilla and the half-taco.
My favorite part of the day was finding my sheep planner. I was starting to get sad because I felt like I wasn't gonna get it anymore but then I saw it in Megamall. I was already making plans to visit a lot of malls just to look for it. I asked Cha if she wanted to watch Madagascar 2 in Glorietta that night so we can check the National Bookstore there. Then I was assigning her to check in both NBs in Greenhills. I was planning on walking to Podium from Megamall just to check the NB there and then I was already trying to think of when we could go to Galleria to check..but all of these weren't necessary because I found the planner in Megamall. We asked the saleslady if they still had the Hallmark planners and she said they should be by the counter...on my way to the counter, I saw a planner in the corner of my eye, I saw the one with the dog with green glasses, then I stuck my hand to the counter and grabbed two planners....I turned the around and it was the sheep planner!!! Two of them...Cha was on her way to the other counter and I ran to her, made a funny noise then showed her the planners...I felt like a kid, I was so happy...I'm not sure if I was jumping around..hehe...
I smiled and said "God loves me"...I was really starting to feel down. I was praying that I find the sheep planner...again it just felt like the things I hoped and waited for were falling into place, it was just a nice feeling...especially now that I've been feeling lonely every now and then.
Cha and I picked up her puzzle then after walking around the mall, we went to Church. Then we had dinner in Latizze where my cousin Nic worked. The food was good, I recommend the place...I was stuffed after dinner, which wasn't good because I felt like going to bed once I got home...hehe...I took my shower so that woke me up a bit and I got to read a few pages of my Hi16.7 reading before falling asleep. Cha woke me up when she went to the room but I was still sleepy...I finally got up around 12:30 to drink my antibiotic, ate cereal, helped Cha with her puzzle then resumed reading until about 2am. I finished until page 34 (I think) before deciding to sleep.
***
Was real sleepy when I woke up in the morning. I can't remember the first thing I did but I know I switched the channel to CS9 to catch my NBA for the day then my dad called and we agreed to meet in a while so I took a bath, ate lunch, continued reading while waiting for him...then Cha and I went with him to MOA to get my Zen checked and to get another copy of my receipt. I bought a meal in Subway, one of my fave places to eat, I stop by Subway whenever I have the chance to, I love their oatmeal cookies and I miss their subs. I wanted to be home before 2pm so that I could catch the UAAP-NCAA All-Star game but we stopped by S&R. We bought some stuff, toiletries mostly...I have two giant shampoos, hehe...my dad pretty much gave me permission to get whatever...it was his friend who paid...I didn't get too many things, just the things I needed and some things I liked like Hawaiian Punch...the bill was around 15k. Then he drove us home. I found out that it was okay that I didn't get home at 2pm because it was just the juniors' game. I read more Hi16.7 (mostly during commercial break) and watched the 3-point shootout, dunk contest, and a few seconds of the seniors' game. I had to go to Shang to get my picture taken for my resume...so Cha and I went, she put make-up on me and stuff. We dropped off something for my mom's friend in church before going home.
We ate dinner with mom and ma then I watched what was left of the seniors' game, UAAP won...yey! Mom and Cha watched with me and Ma dropped by too...she showed us some old pictures and I had another Ma Moment. After the game we went home. I took a shower, fixed my things...
Once I was in bed, I found myself not in the mood for anything else but writing so here I am...hehe...The Nanny Diaries just finished, I didn't pay much attention to the movie but it seemed nice. I saw a part of Premonition and got sad because Jim died, I thought he lived but then he didn't...I saw that movie in the cinema before, forgot the ending...but I was reminded today and it made me sad...hehe...
I'm blabbing too much already...guess I'll stop now...hehe...
(I still have to wait for 12:30....darn....The Holiday is next...I've seen it thrice already, I think)
Late Blog
I had a bunch of things I wanted to blog about but either I was too tired or Cha needed Presario so by the time I could use it I was already sleepy...it's funny because now I can barely remember the things I wanted to say, it's real different I guess when you feel something at the spur of the moment. Well anyway, here's my best shot at it...
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
This day was a pretty bad day for me..at least it started that way, I had a bad dream that day...I killed someone...it's weird but the dream wasn't really about killing the person, it was more of I know I killed someone, like I can remember killing someone and I was trying to cover it up by framing someone else but in the end I told my mom that I think I was the murderer, I told her I wasn't sure how it happened but I think I killed someone...I woke up feeling so bad and scared, it felt real...I even had to ask myself if it was just a dream, it was just a real bad feeling.
I tried shaking the feeling off by looking for something to watch on TV...it's one of the perks of having afternoon classes, hehe...I watched Like Mike on Star Movies, I've seen it before but it was just nice to see it again, I'm a basketball freak, what can I do? And it was feel good movie, which was what I needed after having that terrible dream. Then I ate with Ma and Ate Nic, I had another Ma Moment which I already added to my blog so that was nice too...it made me feel better after having that bad dream...the dream really affected me...
I thought my day was starting to turn and all but then something kinda annoying happened. I was running out of load so I stopped by Ministop to buy a prepaid card, I loaded the card inside the cab so I was a bit distracted, I know I checked the meter and I was pretty sure it was reset to Php 30...I spent the cab ride daydreaming and getting lost in my thoughts...then to my surprise my cab fare was Php 140 something and I was just on the flyover by Katipunan...I was so surprised, before I paid I asked the driver if he reset the meter and I told him, "Kuya, ang bilis naman ng metro mo...never pa ako umabot ng Php 150, wala namang traffic..ang pinkamataas na bayad ko Php 120 na..."
My total cab fare was Php 157.50 including the plus Php 10...the driver told me to just give him Php 150...that whole incident put my day back to being bad...I mean, I just felt like it was not my day and it all started with that horrible dream.
I got a bit sleepy in my LS135 class but I did my best to participate and remain awake. Theo was interesting, no formal lesson yet just an overview, it was real interesting...I got excited to read our first handout (I read it already and it wasn't as interesting as I thought it would be, it was kind of weird actually but it wasn't boring).
After Theo I decided to get my readings at the library and again it just reminded me that it wasn't my day...I stood in line for about an hour just photocopy my Hi16.7 readings. The nice thing was I ran into Ms. Thomas on my way to the reserve section. During my quiet time, I thought about dropping by her office and talking to her...I was having a hard time with something and I needed some help but I wasn't sure if I should open it up to her, I kinda took running into her as a sign. I mean I said if she was there at the office then maybe I should talk to her...I was still contemplating whether I should even drop by and then I ran into her and the words just came out. So after standing in line for an hour I dropped by her office, photocopying ate so much of my time so I decided to just put off telling her, but I let her know that there was something I wanted to talk to her about so we set an appointment either Thursday or Friday. I started feeling better after chatting with her. I was a bit upset that I didn't have more time to read my readings but I at least finished my reading for Philosophy.
Then I went off to my last class, Hi198.7, Ms. Garilao seemed cool although the class kind of intimidated me...I don't know why but I was just intimidated, maybe it was because she said that the class was the easiest one she was teaching this sem so I kinda felt like she was a tough teacher or something...well, let's just see...
The highlight of my day was meeting Kate...she's in my Hi198.7 class and she's my groupmate. After meeting she asked me if I went to St. Paul Pasig and I said yes then she suddenly said that she knew me, she was my classmate, she remembered my name. She has this gift for remembering people's names, we talked about St. Paul on our way out of class, she started mentioning names of other people in our batch and it brought back memories, mostly bad...hehe...but it was a pretty nice nostalgic moment.
Meeting Kate kinda cheered me up. Another thing that cheered me up was that Ms. Garilao said that we wouldn't finish the class late, like we'd be done before 9pm so I was happy because that meant that I didn't have to worry much about getting home in time for Smallville...hehe...Cha knew I was happy about it. My mom also said yes to BTV so that was nice (I just called today and they'll install the box on Wednesday...24/7 basketball, yey!)
Oh another thing that was nice about my day was seeing Sir Tirol while waiting for my first class, I was standing outside SOM 210 and he was over at the 3rd floor of CTC, he just finished his class and he saw me standing over in SOM, he waved, I thought it was a nice gesture...it made me feel good, it was real nice to see him...I miss him and my classes with him...Sir Tirol's the best.
I had one of my weird moments while walking out of the lib in the dark...since my class finished early I had to wait for my ride so I decided to go to the lib first to get some reading done. When I came out of the lib, I felt something weird, like I was coming out of the lib and it was dark already, I felt like it was just another day at work and it just felt good to be a student. I mean life seemed simple, I just read, turn in papers, and take tests. Life won't be this simple anymore...I'll be graduating in March...I just smiled and tried to cherish the moment.
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Monday, November 10, 2008 - Tuesday, November 11, 2008
First day of classes...I said I would blog about it but was too tired...
I don't remember much about my first day back in school but I know that I ran into a lot of people and it was nice seeing all of them..I ran into Melai, Lau, Gino, Martin...just to name a few...they were people I didn't really expect to run into so it was a nice surprise. Running into all those people was a good welcome back for me, it always brightens up my day when I run into friends. I also had that "it's my last semester" feeling...hehe...so these were the striking parts of my first day in school.
A note on my second day, again I don't remember much but I felt good when Mr. Soh remembered me..it felt nice and I was excited to be in his class, he seems real cool and I know he's good. His class seems fun and I feel and know that there is a lot I can learn in his class...I can't wait.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
This day was a pretty bad day for me..at least it started that way, I had a bad dream that day...I killed someone...it's weird but the dream wasn't really about killing the person, it was more of I know I killed someone, like I can remember killing someone and I was trying to cover it up by framing someone else but in the end I told my mom that I think I was the murderer, I told her I wasn't sure how it happened but I think I killed someone...I woke up feeling so bad and scared, it felt real...I even had to ask myself if it was just a dream, it was just a real bad feeling.
I tried shaking the feeling off by looking for something to watch on TV...it's one of the perks of having afternoon classes, hehe...I watched Like Mike on Star Movies, I've seen it before but it was just nice to see it again, I'm a basketball freak, what can I do? And it was feel good movie, which was what I needed after having that terrible dream. Then I ate with Ma and Ate Nic, I had another Ma Moment which I already added to my blog so that was nice too...it made me feel better after having that bad dream...the dream really affected me...
I thought my day was starting to turn and all but then something kinda annoying happened. I was running out of load so I stopped by Ministop to buy a prepaid card, I loaded the card inside the cab so I was a bit distracted, I know I checked the meter and I was pretty sure it was reset to Php 30...I spent the cab ride daydreaming and getting lost in my thoughts...then to my surprise my cab fare was Php 140 something and I was just on the flyover by Katipunan...I was so surprised, before I paid I asked the driver if he reset the meter and I told him, "Kuya, ang bilis naman ng metro mo...never pa ako umabot ng Php 150, wala namang traffic..ang pinkamataas na bayad ko Php 120 na..."
My total cab fare was Php 157.50 including the plus Php 10...the driver told me to just give him Php 150...that whole incident put my day back to being bad...I mean, I just felt like it was not my day and it all started with that horrible dream.
I got a bit sleepy in my LS135 class but I did my best to participate and remain awake. Theo was interesting, no formal lesson yet just an overview, it was real interesting...I got excited to read our first handout (I read it already and it wasn't as interesting as I thought it would be, it was kind of weird actually but it wasn't boring).
After Theo I decided to get my readings at the library and again it just reminded me that it wasn't my day...I stood in line for about an hour just photocopy my Hi16.7 readings. The nice thing was I ran into Ms. Thomas on my way to the reserve section. During my quiet time, I thought about dropping by her office and talking to her...I was having a hard time with something and I needed some help but I wasn't sure if I should open it up to her, I kinda took running into her as a sign. I mean I said if she was there at the office then maybe I should talk to her...I was still contemplating whether I should even drop by and then I ran into her and the words just came out. So after standing in line for an hour I dropped by her office, photocopying ate so much of my time so I decided to just put off telling her, but I let her know that there was something I wanted to talk to her about so we set an appointment either Thursday or Friday. I started feeling better after chatting with her. I was a bit upset that I didn't have more time to read my readings but I at least finished my reading for Philosophy.
Then I went off to my last class, Hi198.7, Ms. Garilao seemed cool although the class kind of intimidated me...I don't know why but I was just intimidated, maybe it was because she said that the class was the easiest one she was teaching this sem so I kinda felt like she was a tough teacher or something...well, let's just see...
The highlight of my day was meeting Kate...she's in my Hi198.7 class and she's my groupmate. After meeting she asked me if I went to St. Paul Pasig and I said yes then she suddenly said that she knew me, she was my classmate, she remembered my name. She has this gift for remembering people's names, we talked about St. Paul on our way out of class, she started mentioning names of other people in our batch and it brought back memories, mostly bad...hehe...but it was a pretty nice nostalgic moment.
Meeting Kate kinda cheered me up. Another thing that cheered me up was that Ms. Garilao said that we wouldn't finish the class late, like we'd be done before 9pm so I was happy because that meant that I didn't have to worry much about getting home in time for Smallville...hehe...Cha knew I was happy about it. My mom also said yes to BTV so that was nice (I just called today and they'll install the box on Wednesday...24/7 basketball, yey!)
Oh another thing that was nice about my day was seeing Sir Tirol while waiting for my first class, I was standing outside SOM 210 and he was over at the 3rd floor of CTC, he just finished his class and he saw me standing over in SOM, he waved, I thought it was a nice gesture...it made me feel good, it was real nice to see him...I miss him and my classes with him...Sir Tirol's the best.
I had one of my weird moments while walking out of the lib in the dark...since my class finished early I had to wait for my ride so I decided to go to the lib first to get some reading done. When I came out of the lib, I felt something weird, like I was coming out of the lib and it was dark already, I felt like it was just another day at work and it just felt good to be a student. I mean life seemed simple, I just read, turn in papers, and take tests. Life won't be this simple anymore...I'll be graduating in March...I just smiled and tried to cherish the moment.
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Monday, November 10, 2008 - Tuesday, November 11, 2008
First day of classes...I said I would blog about it but was too tired...
I don't remember much about my first day back in school but I know that I ran into a lot of people and it was nice seeing all of them..I ran into Melai, Lau, Gino, Martin...just to name a few...they were people I didn't really expect to run into so it was a nice surprise. Running into all those people was a good welcome back for me, it always brightens up my day when I run into friends. I also had that "it's my last semester" feeling...hehe...so these were the striking parts of my first day in school.
A note on my second day, again I don't remember much but I felt good when Mr. Soh remembered me..it felt nice and I was excited to be in his class, he seems real cool and I know he's good. His class seems fun and I feel and know that there is a lot I can learn in his class...I can't wait.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Frustrating End
I'm about to sleep but I decided to get a few things off my chest...sort of...
I just had a frustrating end to my day. It's so hard when the people around you aren't like you. You want to correct certain things but they won't let you, it's two against one, they simply don't see your point and they don't bother trying...it's frustrating because you know something is wrong and something has to be controlled...you wish you can control it, but you can't; they won't let you and you don't have the authority. Those who have the power don't bother using it.
I guess I'm real O.C. and I like making sure that the things that need to be done get done and that the people who are supposed to get what's theirs get it. It's kind of scary how I find it hard to trust people when it comes to certain things, it's surprising and scary because that person is someone that you're supposed to really trust...but why can't I fully trust this time? Why does it bother me? The other scary part is the thing that is involved...it's scary...I don't know if I'm just real O.C. or I just have some bad issues.
Ouch...that's all I have to say...it stings, it hurts...I want to rip my heart out and wish that I couldn't feel a thing. When will I get over this? I know I want to...I think that would be good for me...but somehow as I am typing this, I'm thinking twice...do I want it go away?
...Yes, I think I do...it's too much for me...
Night...I'm off to bed...
I still want to say thank you Lord...
I just had a frustrating end to my day. It's so hard when the people around you aren't like you. You want to correct certain things but they won't let you, it's two against one, they simply don't see your point and they don't bother trying...it's frustrating because you know something is wrong and something has to be controlled...you wish you can control it, but you can't; they won't let you and you don't have the authority. Those who have the power don't bother using it.
I guess I'm real O.C. and I like making sure that the things that need to be done get done and that the people who are supposed to get what's theirs get it. It's kind of scary how I find it hard to trust people when it comes to certain things, it's surprising and scary because that person is someone that you're supposed to really trust...but why can't I fully trust this time? Why does it bother me? The other scary part is the thing that is involved...it's scary...I don't know if I'm just real O.C. or I just have some bad issues.
Ouch...that's all I have to say...it stings, it hurts...I want to rip my heart out and wish that I couldn't feel a thing. When will I get over this? I know I want to...I think that would be good for me...but somehow as I am typing this, I'm thinking twice...do I want it go away?
...Yes, I think I do...it's too much for me...
Night...I'm off to bed...
I still want to say thank you Lord...
Just Had to Talk About It
Before I start working tonight, I just had to write about this...
I had a pretty tiring day for some reason, I think it was all the walking from Bel to CTC, I don't know...well I just finished taking a bath and I was drying myself, I left the TV on CNN and the volume was set high (so I could hear the TV while taking a bath)...well I noticed that there was a basketball commercial on, I felt like it was another btv commercial and I thought it was weird because they only played btv commercials on CS9 ever since Sky Cable lost that channel...so I had a funny, excited feeling already...then I heard it...24/7 Basketball, subscribe to Basketball TV now on Sky Cable...
Suddenly, I sprung to life (I was lethargically drying myself because I was tired and everything...) and I felt much much better...I suddenly had enthusiasm, I mean I was really worn out...
I yelled, Cha, you can subscribe to Basketball TV on Sky Cable!!! You said you would get it for me...Can you get for me? Please...please...please...
My voice was cracking while I was talking to Cha who was downstairs at that time. I gave her Sky Cable's number and she called. They said we had to write a letter of request then they will install this box which costs Php2000 then there will be a monthly subscription fee of Php100.
The Php2000 box thing is kinda making me think twice about it, I'll discuss it with my mom...I can pay for it if ever...I just really felt better after that whole thing and I couldn't wait to write about it...Man I love basketball...I'm a basketball freak I know...haha!
Well, I needed the energy boost...now it's time for work...
Thanks Lord... =)
I had a pretty tiring day for some reason, I think it was all the walking from Bel to CTC, I don't know...well I just finished taking a bath and I was drying myself, I left the TV on CNN and the volume was set high (so I could hear the TV while taking a bath)...well I noticed that there was a basketball commercial on, I felt like it was another btv commercial and I thought it was weird because they only played btv commercials on CS9 ever since Sky Cable lost that channel...so I had a funny, excited feeling already...then I heard it...24/7 Basketball, subscribe to Basketball TV now on Sky Cable...
Suddenly, I sprung to life (I was lethargically drying myself because I was tired and everything...) and I felt much much better...I suddenly had enthusiasm, I mean I was really worn out...
I yelled, Cha, you can subscribe to Basketball TV on Sky Cable!!! You said you would get it for me...Can you get for me? Please...please...please...
My voice was cracking while I was talking to Cha who was downstairs at that time. I gave her Sky Cable's number and she called. They said we had to write a letter of request then they will install this box which costs Php2000 then there will be a monthly subscription fee of Php100.
The Php2000 box thing is kinda making me think twice about it, I'll discuss it with my mom...I can pay for it if ever...I just really felt better after that whole thing and I couldn't wait to write about it...Man I love basketball...I'm a basketball freak I know...haha!
Well, I needed the energy boost...now it's time for work...
Thanks Lord... =)
Friday, November 7, 2008
Upset by the Blazers...Again...
The Portland Trail Blazers broke my heart again today. I've been waiting for my NBA dose for the day, I only get to watch Friday-Monday because I don't have Basketball TV anymore, anyway, I was waiting for the NBA game that they would show in Star Sports. I fell asleep waiting for it, when I woke up it was already the second quarter, it was Houston vs. Portland.
So I watched the game, it annoyed me for the most part because the Rockets kept on blowing chances to take the lead, but it was pretty exciting I guess. Since I fell asleep while waiting for the game, I wasn't able to eat lunch yet and I woke up around 1pm. I told my sister we'd eat once the game was done. Interestingly, the game went into overtime, and I said I didn't mind as long as the Rockets would win, but I was getting pretty hungry though.
In the overtime period, I thought I was put off lunch even more because a basket by one team would be followed by a basket by the other, a miss by one was followed by a miss by the other one, so the game stayed tied. In the last few seconds, the Blazers scored and took the lead, 98-96. The Rockets took possession, 1.9 seconds left, Yao's been having a sub-par game, but he makes a tough turnaround jump shot to tie the game..plus a foul...he makes his free throw so the Rockets take the lead, 99-98...I scream, "Yes, I'm eating lunch!" I was getting real hungry. I was more or less sure that the game was in the bag and that I would have a happy lunch, there was only eight tenths of a second left...but then I remember that four tenths of a second play by Derek Fisher that broke my heart years ago...so I yell "DEFENSE" ..I was pretty confident because Ron Artest was there...
Brandon Roy gets the ball, he was way outside the the point line, he shoots...I thought the shot was short...but...poof (or should I say swish)...the shot goes in, nothing but net. I scream, "What? I thought it was short!" My sister laughs at my reaction. The defense was late, he had a pretty open shot. The officials review if he got it off in time, but it was clear that he did. The Blazers win, 101-99 and break my heart again. They beat the Spurs in their opening game, 100-99.
I wait till the game credits end, I stand up and turn off the TV while ranting to my sister. It was almost 3pm and I was hungry. I rant to her while eating, how the Blazers beat my team again in a close game. She goes, "I don't even know the Blazers, I mean I know them but I don't know them know them, are they even good?" I say, "That's it, they're not even that good, but they've beaten two of my teams...you gotta know them now..."
It sucked that my team lost again, but oh well...I enjoyed the game, sort of...it was a good game. I've been appreciating every NBA game that I get to watch because I don't have the luxury of getting to watch a live game everyday, Sky Cable doesn't have btv anymore, which totally sucks, so I'm NBA deprived...hehe...
Anyway, I forgot about the game as my sister and I sorted our toys for selling. But I just felt like blabbing about the Blazers and how they've broken my heart twice...haha...We'll get those games back, I'm sure of that.
So I watched the game, it annoyed me for the most part because the Rockets kept on blowing chances to take the lead, but it was pretty exciting I guess. Since I fell asleep while waiting for the game, I wasn't able to eat lunch yet and I woke up around 1pm. I told my sister we'd eat once the game was done. Interestingly, the game went into overtime, and I said I didn't mind as long as the Rockets would win, but I was getting pretty hungry though.
In the overtime period, I thought I was put off lunch even more because a basket by one team would be followed by a basket by the other, a miss by one was followed by a miss by the other one, so the game stayed tied. In the last few seconds, the Blazers scored and took the lead, 98-96. The Rockets took possession, 1.9 seconds left, Yao's been having a sub-par game, but he makes a tough turnaround jump shot to tie the game..plus a foul...he makes his free throw so the Rockets take the lead, 99-98...I scream, "Yes, I'm eating lunch!" I was getting real hungry. I was more or less sure that the game was in the bag and that I would have a happy lunch, there was only eight tenths of a second left...but then I remember that four tenths of a second play by Derek Fisher that broke my heart years ago...so I yell "DEFENSE" ..I was pretty confident because Ron Artest was there...
Brandon Roy gets the ball, he was way outside the the point line, he shoots...I thought the shot was short...but...poof (or should I say swish)...the shot goes in, nothing but net. I scream, "What? I thought it was short!" My sister laughs at my reaction. The defense was late, he had a pretty open shot. The officials review if he got it off in time, but it was clear that he did. The Blazers win, 101-99 and break my heart again. They beat the Spurs in their opening game, 100-99.
I wait till the game credits end, I stand up and turn off the TV while ranting to my sister. It was almost 3pm and I was hungry. I rant to her while eating, how the Blazers beat my team again in a close game. She goes, "I don't even know the Blazers, I mean I know them but I don't know them know them, are they even good?" I say, "That's it, they're not even that good, but they've beaten two of my teams...you gotta know them now..."
It sucked that my team lost again, but oh well...I enjoyed the game, sort of...it was a good game. I've been appreciating every NBA game that I get to watch because I don't have the luxury of getting to watch a live game everyday, Sky Cable doesn't have btv anymore, which totally sucks, so I'm NBA deprived...hehe...
Anyway, I forgot about the game as my sister and I sorted our toys for selling. But I just felt like blabbing about the Blazers and how they've broken my heart twice...haha...We'll get those games back, I'm sure of that.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Scared
I was just bursting to let this out. I wasn't sure if I wanted to blog about it but I hope that this might help. I've been having this feeling for a quite a while now but it just resurfaced again, I kinda forgot about it but just a few minutes ago, I felt it again and it scared me.
I feel like I'm becoming my old self again, not that that is bad, but I like the new me; the more carefree one, the less OC one, the less pressured one. Right now, I'm scared that I'm becoming all OC again and I can't help but feel some kind of pressure, pressure to do well that is. I'm just scared. I don't wanna go back to that. Sometimes I feel like I'm thinking too much again. I just feel so restless sometimes. I don't know what to do. It's just scary.
I guess I'm kind of afraid repeating my third year second semester. I had a good semester and a good break so far. I'm just scared. I guess I just need a constant reminder. I need to constantly remind myself of the more important things. I have to remind myself that it's just school and it's just another part of my life. I'm just so afraid to go back.
But I guess this is good for me. It'll help me solidify the new things about me. I think it might help me balance things out. I guess a part of me is starting to feel pressured because now I feel like I have no excuse not to do well and not to be okay. When the first semester started, I guess I had an excuse, but now that I'm better I guess a part of me feels like I have no longer have an excuse.
I'm just afraid of making the same mistakes. But I guess I shouldn't let my fear overwhelm me, instead, I think I should let it remind me of what I should do, what I should keep in mind. I can do this. I can get through this.
And I know, I felt it while I was praying, God's here for me...everything's gonna be okay.
And I guess there are people watching out for me out there...Cha watch me and keep me in check...I know I asked you to do that this sem, don't forget...hehe...
I'm feeling better now. I'm starting to crack jokes again...hehe...
I feel like I'm becoming my old self again, not that that is bad, but I like the new me; the more carefree one, the less OC one, the less pressured one. Right now, I'm scared that I'm becoming all OC again and I can't help but feel some kind of pressure, pressure to do well that is. I'm just scared. I don't wanna go back to that. Sometimes I feel like I'm thinking too much again. I just feel so restless sometimes. I don't know what to do. It's just scary.
I guess I'm kind of afraid repeating my third year second semester. I had a good semester and a good break so far. I'm just scared. I guess I just need a constant reminder. I need to constantly remind myself of the more important things. I have to remind myself that it's just school and it's just another part of my life. I'm just so afraid to go back.
But I guess this is good for me. It'll help me solidify the new things about me. I think it might help me balance things out. I guess a part of me is starting to feel pressured because now I feel like I have no excuse not to do well and not to be okay. When the first semester started, I guess I had an excuse, but now that I'm better I guess a part of me feels like I have no longer have an excuse.
I'm just afraid of making the same mistakes. But I guess I shouldn't let my fear overwhelm me, instead, I think I should let it remind me of what I should do, what I should keep in mind. I can do this. I can get through this.
And I know, I felt it while I was praying, God's here for me...everything's gonna be okay.
And I guess there are people watching out for me out there...Cha watch me and keep me in check...I know I asked you to do that this sem, don't forget...hehe...
I'm feeling better now. I'm starting to crack jokes again...hehe...
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
An Off Day
Played basketball today. I wasn't planning to but the internet was down and I was bored so I decided to shoot some hoops. I was off today. I didn't like my form or my shot. I twisted my ankle twice after attempting a shot. The first time it happened I thought it was just nothing, like I just made a mistake or something. I tried shooting again and it happened again, it hurt more this time. I had to go sit on the bench for a while. I don't know what it was, maybe it was my position or something. My ankle still hurts a little. But I still played after that and my shooting woes continued. I don't know if it was my jump or my release, it just didn't feel right. I was off.
Then Cha came and I told her I was off. I told her she might be able to beat my today. She asked if I wanted to play, I said okay. I was still doing pretty bad. There was a time that my right shoulder hurt, I think I overstretched it or something. But after a few movements here and there it was fine.
Cha led 6-9 at one point but I was able to catch up and eventually won. I think I would've felt real bad if I lost. I thought I was starting to warm up in the end but I missed a few open shots pretty bad. I was feeling better towards the end, more comfortable shooting at least. Then Cha and I did our usual ten shots. I missed my second and third shots or third and fourth, the point is I missed two. Then I made five straight so I was 6 out of 9. I think I put too much pressure on myself because I don't like making less than seven shots. I missed my last shot, it rolled out to the side. I felt pretty bad because seven shots is my minimum, or three misses. Anything lower than that I don't like. So I made 6 out of 10...pretty sucky...I thought it was worth sharing. Just an off day I guess.
** It was nice having Juliane watch and cheer on though, she was real cute **
Then Cha came and I told her I was off. I told her she might be able to beat my today. She asked if I wanted to play, I said okay. I was still doing pretty bad. There was a time that my right shoulder hurt, I think I overstretched it or something. But after a few movements here and there it was fine.
Cha led 6-9 at one point but I was able to catch up and eventually won. I think I would've felt real bad if I lost. I thought I was starting to warm up in the end but I missed a few open shots pretty bad. I was feeling better towards the end, more comfortable shooting at least. Then Cha and I did our usual ten shots. I missed my second and third shots or third and fourth, the point is I missed two. Then I made five straight so I was 6 out of 9. I think I put too much pressure on myself because I don't like making less than seven shots. I missed my last shot, it rolled out to the side. I felt pretty bad because seven shots is my minimum, or three misses. Anything lower than that I don't like. So I made 6 out of 10...pretty sucky...I thought it was worth sharing. Just an off day I guess.
** It was nice having Juliane watch and cheer on though, she was real cute **
Monday, November 3, 2008
What a Day (October 7, 2008)
My day started out pretty bad...felt bad because I was kinda mean or I felt selfish in the morning because I denied the driver 5 bucks. That upset me real bad and so I felt real bad, I felt like I wouldn't even enjoy the rest of my day. Then I ate lunch, I didn't even finish my food, it wasn't as good either. Then I drank my medicine and I don't think I drank enough water because the weird medicine stuck in my throat thing happened and I was trying to burp it out until the afternoon. It wasn't a good feeling, I couldn't breathe properly. Then I had class, got a bit sleepy...then I got hungry again so I bought a sandwich and wished I had just eaten that earlier instead of what I ate. Then I bought iced tea, but it tasted funny so I threw it because I was afraid of another stomach ache...I didn't go to school the day before because I rested from fever and stomachache. Then my day started getting a bit better, although I wasn't able to correctly guess Isabela's painting, but I had an interesting conversation with her. Oh yeah, Sam and I got an A in our research proposal, it was an A from Dr. Aguilar so that was special because I thought I would never get an A from him. Then I ran into Ate Myla who was so nice so it made me smile. These happened after I went to the chapel, although that was when my burping thing started. Then I picked up Ai from bel, hehe....Then the bonfire. Got stuck buying shirts so I wasn't able to get a spot in the Gesu then I was worrying about the shirts and my deal with buying them so I was distracted in the mass, started feeling bad again. Then Hans and Jen couldn't come. Wasn't able to get a seat. Then Kaye came. Started having a good time. made new friends while in line...so long wait...super muddy..but cool because got to meet the players who were real nice although they weren't complete anymore. they were real nice and Chris Tiu remembered me. Jai was funny and cute. Nonoy was nice and seemed shy. Just had fun. It was cool. they were real nice. Ang sarap maging Atenista. then ducky adventure to go the wall. way home. laughing and talking. nice bonding with kaye. finally ate dinner after standing in line for i dnt knw how long then got home around 3. took a bath, ate then went to bed 4am. woke up almost 2..ate lunch then surfed the net, about to work but decided to write the draft of this blog..and here it is.
scrap the plans for doing polsci paper, haha...
left admu past 2. got home almost 3, bought food. slept 4am.
MY SHOULDER HURTS TOO...CARRIED MY BAG ALL DAY, EVEN IN THE BONFIRE.
I still owe myself blogs about the RESOLUTION OF OLYMPIC DILEMMA (OLYMPIC VIDEOS and GOING TO CHA'S HOUSE) and my WNBA FREAKDOM.
scrap the plans for doing polsci paper, haha...
left admu past 2. got home almost 3, bought food. slept 4am.
MY SHOULDER HURTS TOO...CARRIED MY BAG ALL DAY, EVEN IN THE BONFIRE.
I still owe myself blogs about the RESOLUTION OF OLYMPIC DILEMMA (OLYMPIC VIDEOS and GOING TO CHA'S HOUSE) and my WNBA FREAKDOM.
I'm Bored Today, What Can I Do?
A few more articles I found interesting...haha!
I skimmed through the article, I think I've experienced broken heart syndrome a few times, or I don't know, maybe it was something else...hehe...
http://health.yahoo.com/other-other/broken-heart-syndrome-is-bad-news-bad-for-your-heart/mayoclinic--7D5DFBD8-E7FF-0DBD-158126908C80D3E9.html
Something I should keep in mind...
http://health.yahoo.com/depression-causes/chronic-stress-can-it-cause-depression/mayoclinic--ACA4A132-2A5D-9994-E6C4E01A48F09A7D.html
I skimmed through the article, I think I've experienced broken heart syndrome a few times, or I don't know, maybe it was something else...hehe...
http://health.yahoo.com/other-other/broken-heart-syndrome-is-bad-news-bad-for-your-heart/mayoclinic--7D5DFBD8-E7FF-0DBD-158126908C80D3E9.html
Something I should keep in mind...
http://health.yahoo.com/depression-causes/chronic-stress-can-it-cause-depression/mayoclinic--ACA4A132-2A5D-9994-E6C4E01A48F09A7D.html
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Supercharge Your Brain
http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/12-simple-ways-to-supercharge-your-brain-293892/
I think it's cool. I'd keep this in mind. Not done reading the article yet, haha!
I think it's cool. I'd keep this in mind. Not done reading the article yet, haha!
Ma Moments
It just hit me one day that my grandma is getting older and I should treasure my days with her. Here are a few "Ma Moments" that I want to remember. The first one actually inspired me to create a blog entry about the whole thing. These happened a few months ago so my memory might not actually be accurate but this is the general gist.
1. At the den after dinner, I go to my grandma to say good night and she goes, "Zy, you are scared of the goat? You don't like it? Febe said. Why?"
"I don't know, I just don't like it. It's scary..."
"No...Why?...I bought that..." (She says while fixing the goat rug...hehe)
It was just a cute moment with my grandma. I found her interrogation cute.
2. I go inside my grandma's room to say good night (I think...but the point is I go to her room) She goes, "Zy, look at this...it's nice noh?" She presses something so her toy starts singing and dancing. She smiles..."Nice right?"
"Yeah, it's nice ma..." I smile...it was cute...but what was priceless was the look on my grandma's face, she was smiling, all pleased and everything, it was nice.
3. This just happened last night, in Shang, after watching My Only U with my mom, Kei, and Cha. I walk outside the cinema with my grandma, I ask my mom, "Did ma watch the movie?"
Mom: Sometimes she sleeps...laughs...
Ma: No...
We continue walking and I just absorb the moment. I just watched a movie with my grandma, wow...I look at her and just smile...I love my grandma and it was nice spending time with her. I see her face relaxed and quite happy...we continue walking and I just stay by her side to assist her while walking. We talk a little on the way to the car.
Ma: I can't walk without an alalay anymore..holds my shoulder...
Me: At least you can still walk...ma laughs...
That's all for now...I'll add more next time. Love you Ma! Thanks for my grandma Lord.
***
November 12, 2008
I was eating lunch with my grandma and cousin. I wasn't feeling very well, I had a bad dream and I felt bad before going to sleep, but then this happened and it kinda brightened up my day a bit, it made me smile at least...
I kept on eating getting rellenong bangus...
Ma: Zy, you finish that na...
(I make a funny face)
Me: No ma... Ate Nic laughs
(Ma points at the other fish, the fried catfish, with her fork)
Ma: Zy look oh, the fish is looking at you so that you will eat it...
Ate Nic and I laugh...I smile and I immediately think of adding this to my "Ma Moments"
Thanks for making me smile Ma...Thanks for my grandma Lord...
***
It was also funny when I got home for dinner...I went to the den to say hi to grandma but she was asleep so I just ate with Cha already...after a while my grandma comes out of the den and kinda says in a loud voice, "Zy, you ah...you eat but you don't say hi.."
I say, "Ma, you were sleeping...I went to you..."
Ma: Ah, I was sleeping ba?
Cha: Yeah, you were ma...she went to you but you were sleeping then you moved and she went back but you went to sleep again...
Ma: Ahh...
My grandma's cute...hehe...
***
August 17, 2009
We were having dinner at Kimpura (Me, Mom, Ma, Cha, Tito Tic, Tita Heidi, Juliane, Yaya, Fr. Albert) for Lolo's death anniversary. We were chatting while eating. I forgot how we got to the topic but Tita Heidi mentioned that her best friend, Tita Gina, was not in the Philippines anymore. Tita Gina has this excellent lomi place in Batangas.
Tita Heidi: Wala na nga po si Gina eh...
Ma: Yung lomi?! (with matching wide eyes)
Tita Heidi: Hindi po, si Gina lang po. Yung lomi, nandoon pa po.
Ma's reaction was real cute and funny...like she was so devastated that the lomi might not be there anymore. I kinda felt the same way but ma verbalized it and it was just cute. Cha and I, especially Cha, couldn't stop laughing.
It was a nice dinner..after an extremely stressful day.
I want to eat Tita Gina's lomi again... =p
1. At the den after dinner, I go to my grandma to say good night and she goes, "Zy, you are scared of the goat? You don't like it? Febe said. Why?"
"I don't know, I just don't like it. It's scary..."
"No...Why?...I bought that..." (She says while fixing the goat rug...hehe)
It was just a cute moment with my grandma. I found her interrogation cute.
2. I go inside my grandma's room to say good night (I think...but the point is I go to her room) She goes, "Zy, look at this...it's nice noh?" She presses something so her toy starts singing and dancing. She smiles..."Nice right?"
"Yeah, it's nice ma..." I smile...it was cute...but what was priceless was the look on my grandma's face, she was smiling, all pleased and everything, it was nice.
3. This just happened last night, in Shang, after watching My Only U with my mom, Kei, and Cha. I walk outside the cinema with my grandma, I ask my mom, "Did ma watch the movie?"
Mom: Sometimes she sleeps...laughs...
Ma: No...
We continue walking and I just absorb the moment. I just watched a movie with my grandma, wow...I look at her and just smile...I love my grandma and it was nice spending time with her. I see her face relaxed and quite happy...we continue walking and I just stay by her side to assist her while walking. We talk a little on the way to the car.
Ma: I can't walk without an alalay anymore..holds my shoulder...
Me: At least you can still walk...ma laughs...
That's all for now...I'll add more next time. Love you Ma! Thanks for my grandma Lord.
***
November 12, 2008
I was eating lunch with my grandma and cousin. I wasn't feeling very well, I had a bad dream and I felt bad before going to sleep, but then this happened and it kinda brightened up my day a bit, it made me smile at least...
I kept on eating getting rellenong bangus...
Ma: Zy, you finish that na...
(I make a funny face)
Me: No ma... Ate Nic laughs
(Ma points at the other fish, the fried catfish, with her fork)
Ma: Zy look oh, the fish is looking at you so that you will eat it...
Ate Nic and I laugh...I smile and I immediately think of adding this to my "Ma Moments"
Thanks for making me smile Ma...Thanks for my grandma Lord...
***
It was also funny when I got home for dinner...I went to the den to say hi to grandma but she was asleep so I just ate with Cha already...after a while my grandma comes out of the den and kinda says in a loud voice, "Zy, you ah...you eat but you don't say hi.."
I say, "Ma, you were sleeping...I went to you..."
Ma: Ah, I was sleeping ba?
Cha: Yeah, you were ma...she went to you but you were sleeping then you moved and she went back but you went to sleep again...
Ma: Ahh...
My grandma's cute...hehe...
***
August 17, 2009
We were having dinner at Kimpura (Me, Mom, Ma, Cha, Tito Tic, Tita Heidi, Juliane, Yaya, Fr. Albert) for Lolo's death anniversary. We were chatting while eating. I forgot how we got to the topic but Tita Heidi mentioned that her best friend, Tita Gina, was not in the Philippines anymore. Tita Gina has this excellent lomi place in Batangas.
Tita Heidi: Wala na nga po si Gina eh...
Ma: Yung lomi?! (with matching wide eyes)
Tita Heidi: Hindi po, si Gina lang po. Yung lomi, nandoon pa po.
Ma's reaction was real cute and funny...like she was so devastated that the lomi might not be there anymore. I kinda felt the same way but ma verbalized it and it was just cute. Cha and I, especially Cha, couldn't stop laughing.
It was a nice dinner..after an extremely stressful day.
I want to eat Tita Gina's lomi again... =p
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Great Day
I had a great day today...but I'm too sleepy to blog about it, hehe...I just wanted to write a bit about it because I said I was gonna blog about it today.
I slept around 2am and woke up around 5:45 to enlist for my classes. After that I wasn't able to go back to sleep anymore...so that's why I'm sleepy...hehe...I was too hyper, thus disoriented, so I wasn't able to blog earlier. I was supposed to blog after Smallville, but I'm just too sleepy.
Right now, I'm just babbling...hehe...sabaw pa rin ako, hehe...I still feel a bit disoriented from being hyper...haha...
Anyway, just a quick note about my day. I had fun talking to friends online and helping them out. But the highlight of my day was my meeting with my spiritual director/companion. We had a great talk. It was liberating...details about it next time. I wanna rest and maybe bother Isabela for a few minutes before I try to get some sleep.
Thanks Lord for the great day! =)
I slept around 2am and woke up around 5:45 to enlist for my classes. After that I wasn't able to go back to sleep anymore...so that's why I'm sleepy...hehe...I was too hyper, thus disoriented, so I wasn't able to blog earlier. I was supposed to blog after Smallville, but I'm just too sleepy.
Right now, I'm just babbling...hehe...sabaw pa rin ako, hehe...I still feel a bit disoriented from being hyper...haha...
Anyway, just a quick note about my day. I had fun talking to friends online and helping them out. But the highlight of my day was my meeting with my spiritual director/companion. We had a great talk. It was liberating...details about it next time. I wanna rest and maybe bother Isabela for a few minutes before I try to get some sleep.
Thanks Lord for the great day! =)
Monday, October 20, 2008
Late...but Nice
I was kinda late for mass last Saturday (felt real bad). I missed the first reading and part of the second reading so I said I would just read the readings myself and I got to do that today, I just finished actually.
I got struck by what I read and so I decided to write about it. The first reading just made me feel how powerful and cool God was, hehe...I'm glad He's my Lord... =)
The Responsorial Psalm was kinda the one that put the idea of writing into my head. I was pretty hyper after proofreading a few chapters of Hidden Thirteen, the Clark and Lana fan fic that I like so much, my fave so far actually...well, I was hyper and I felt like singing (I was singing...hehe), then the reading turned out to be Psalm 96 and it said "Sing to the Lord a new song...Sing to the Lord" and it just made me smile, even laugh, hehe...I found it cute and funny.
Then the second reading was also nice, it kinda made me realize that I missed reading the Bible. I do read once a week but I guess I haven't read it the way I just did, it felt nice...I really missed it. It also felt nice reading the Gospel again, I still remembered it from church last Sunday.
Well that's about it, just wanted to note this little moment. It felt real nice.
I got struck by what I read and so I decided to write about it. The first reading just made me feel how powerful and cool God was, hehe...I'm glad He's my Lord... =)
The Responsorial Psalm was kinda the one that put the idea of writing into my head. I was pretty hyper after proofreading a few chapters of Hidden Thirteen, the Clark and Lana fan fic that I like so much, my fave so far actually...well, I was hyper and I felt like singing (I was singing...hehe), then the reading turned out to be Psalm 96 and it said "Sing to the Lord a new song...Sing to the Lord" and it just made me smile, even laugh, hehe...I found it cute and funny.
Then the second reading was also nice, it kinda made me realize that I missed reading the Bible. I do read once a week but I guess I haven't read it the way I just did, it felt nice...I really missed it. It also felt nice reading the Gospel again, I still remembered it from church last Sunday.
Well that's about it, just wanted to note this little moment. It felt real nice.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Strange
It's only been five days since the semester ended and I've been enjoying myself a lot...been going out and stuff; put songs in my zen, watched movies, hung out with my cousins and friends, swam, played basketball...it's pretty much been fun...
But today, I found it weird how I got excited about "working" again...I mean Hans reminded us to read the E-Strat manual and as soon as I finished getting ready for bed, I decided to get my laptop, check my mail and check out the manual. I don't really like reading off the computer so I just browsed (actually I'm still browsing it) the manual and I'm planning on browsing the rest of the site. Anyway, I decided to print the manual maybe tomorrow evening or something then I'd read it over the break...the strange thing is I felt excited to be doing "something" again, like I missed having to do something, like working.
Hehe, but I guess it's just the novelty of it...I'm pretty sure I'll wish I didn't have work once school starts...hehehe!
Well that's all, I just wanted to blog about that...I found it strange and worth blogging about...haha...I'm so happy it's sem break and that I'm actually enjoying it...(I mean I'm not in the hospital, although this morning I was freaking myself out; I don't wanna get sick again...kinda traumatized by mosquito bites)
I can't wait to enjoy the rest of my break! Thanks Lord... =)
But today, I found it weird how I got excited about "working" again...I mean Hans reminded us to read the E-Strat manual and as soon as I finished getting ready for bed, I decided to get my laptop, check my mail and check out the manual. I don't really like reading off the computer so I just browsed (actually I'm still browsing it) the manual and I'm planning on browsing the rest of the site. Anyway, I decided to print the manual maybe tomorrow evening or something then I'd read it over the break...the strange thing is I felt excited to be doing "something" again, like I missed having to do something, like working.
Hehe, but I guess it's just the novelty of it...I'm pretty sure I'll wish I didn't have work once school starts...hehehe!
Well that's all, I just wanted to blog about that...I found it strange and worth blogging about...haha...I'm so happy it's sem break and that I'm actually enjoying it...(I mean I'm not in the hospital, although this morning I was freaking myself out; I don't wanna get sick again...kinda traumatized by mosquito bites)
I can't wait to enjoy the rest of my break! Thanks Lord... =)
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Nice Day..Mostly
I'm just kinda full of energy right now...not as much as I was a while ago but enough that I don't think I'm ready to sleep yet and I can't do anything much...I mean I am a bit tired to elaborate on my day...I'll do that some other time. But it would suffice to say that I had a pretty good day. The only thing that got me down was my Ph104 orals. I know I didn't do well. I just got a C+, I've never gotten that in Philo before...makes me question myself...were my Ph101 and 102 flukes? I don't think they were. But a C+ is just painful for me. I like Philosophy...I like it a lot. But I guess you can never box yourself...you're a different person everyday...I guess I just wasn't as involved in Philo this time, and well, I don't think I exerted as much effort as I did before, so I guess it makes sense. As Aristotle would say, one action does not make a man virtuous; one has to continuously choose to act virtuously; I chose not to engage in Ph104 as much as I did in 101 and 102. Nevertheless, it's still pretty painful. But I am happy about the things I learned in Philo this sem, even though they weren't as intense as before.
** I think it'll take me a few days to get over my C+...might even talk to Sir Strebel about it...I miss him anyway...hehe...**
** I think it'll take me a few days to get over my C+...might even talk to Sir Strebel about it...I miss him anyway...hehe...**
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